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2015-10-06 07:05:03 (UTC)

10/6/2015 - He Saw The Real Me

Dear Diary,

----School
First of all, first week of school has been a roller coaster of excitement, nostalgia, and boredom. HA~ It's an exciting feeling to W A N T to go back to school.. nostalgia because I can't believe SCC would be the school I return to, to finish my BAS.. boredom because my 2nd period professor is zZZzz.... Man he's got a killer smile for his age (he reminds me of Tony Stark from Iron Man) but damn can a man go on and on for 2 hours.

----Family
In other news regarding my feelings..
I'm having a hard time deciding whether I should approach my dad or not. I know he's always told me not to follow people's shadows, I understand that. But just the fact that I wasn't able to get over my breakup from the start pissed him off. I mean, he can't blame me.. I don't even think six months could account for the five years I lost to regain my own footing in life. Yet alone.. if dad knew the entire story.. I think he would've become a murderer for his own daughter's sake (my mom would say).

----Love
I'm in love with a friend of seven years of parallel history.
I don't think people could even begin to understand the level of parallelism within this relationship I have with Michael. It makes me scared and nervous all the time when things we do are always so similar. I even more excited to say that I feel heavenly connected to his soul.. No words could ever describe how I feel.. the word "love" can't even be a synonym to how our souls are connected. It's beyond this world. And I love us for this fruitful reunion.

--
Janie

PS - He saw the real me. I let him see me cry, the weakest side of me.. and he wasn't scared. He embraced me and loved me even more.




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