✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2015-09-07 04:05:01 (UTC)

I Miss You


Dear Josh,


It's been nearly a month since we broke up...
Yesterday I noticed your facebook was deactivated...

It turns out that we're still "friends" on my other account...

I almost messaged you the other day on it.

And as much as I want to email you,
text you, send you messages over skype...

I have to fight it... because I don't want to hurt you again.

As much as I miss you.. and crave you...
As much as I think about you, and wish you were here..


I know that it won't work... at least not now..
I'm crazy and bitter.. and unfit for you...

And as much as I don't want to be alone...
I don't want to drag you down...

I don't know how long it will take until I can clean up my life...
Until I can be ready and capable of handling a relationship.. If ever.


But it would be selfish of me to ask you to wait for me...


I just want you to live your life to the fullest... and be happy...

Even it means I can't be in it.

In case you were wondering.. that's why I haven't messaged you..
It isn't because I don't care...
Or that I don't love you and want to be with you....


It's because I love you too much to put you through my BS again....

Sincerely,
WishIWasYoursAgain





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