LustingforNightmares

tumbleweed
2015-08-21 23:43:07 (UTC)

Spider Moose

"From Point A to Point B" by Modest Mouse

Point A to point B, oh, I know
Lots of points with no points in between
For me, so lonely but never alone
I know, I'm at my house but I wish that I were at home


August 21, 2015 Friday 11:43 PM

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HEY YOU: Sorry. This is just to say, I'm sorry if I don't answer your feedback??? As you probably know, this site is pretty slow lately and it takes like a half an hour for my message page to load and another ten or fifteen minutes when I click on one to reply to.

To you who sent me feedback; I can't remember what you said but I think it made me happy and excited??? Have a nice day, I like you (:
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I just realized that today was really great. Not much happened, but there were no bad things in my head and I've gotten used to my chest pains so I didn't pay those much mind and I got to lounge around (mostly) naked for an hour.

I woke up late as hell because I (yet again) stayed up until half past 3, switching back and forth between writing something and reading fanfictions, ahha.

Right now, I'm reading Drarry themed fanfictions and I find that I don't like them much?? Probably because in order for them to work, most people completely transform the characters without explanation. Some are okay but I mean. Still.

(I know Draco is horrible and the things he did were unforgivable, but I like reading things in which he, I dunno, partly overcomes his cowardice?? Repents or some shit? Because as mean as he is, I just feel so bad for him... I'M SORRY, I'm very much an undying Harry Potter fan, haha)

So basically, lots and lots of gay sex everywherrreeeee. In the fanfictions, I mean. Although someone, somewhere, might be having gay sex at this given moment. Go, you! Hope you're enjoying it!

Gay sex is nice to read about (although I get annoyed sometimes, because there are regular breaks in the plots in order for them to get it on??? Like, okaY???). I dunno, as I've said before, I bond with people who're turned on by gay sex (currently thinking of Liv and Elise, hehah). I think it's because I like guy moans. Eh.

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Right. The rest of my day, haha. Um?? I had toast for breakfast?? And some weird, tofu thing that my parents bought at the grocery store (my parents are kind of a little bit hippie-ish, but I don't mind because that tofu mixture is really good, fucking hell. Usually I hate tofu).

I spent hours writing, probably. Oh! No, I didn't! I did some research on Norse mythology!!!

I leARNED SO MUCH, OH MY GOSH. NORSE MYTHS ARE SO COOL.

(I didn't know Yggdrasil also means Odin's horse - or something along those lines?? It was apparently called that because of the time Odin hung himself from the tree for, what, nine days? I'll read more closesly later)

I believe they are my next obsession. I may try finding a book about Norse myths and also Runes. I want to learn Runes.

I think my favorite thing about Norse mythology so far is the fact that Odin has a goddamn eight-legged horse (named Sleipnir. I dunno why all the names have to have strange spellings) that was birthed by Loki's temporary vagina, haha.

I'm also into Hel, the god of the underworld. I think he's half-dead and half-alive and I think that's interesting.

I'm going to try and learn the Norse myths very well. Better than I know the Greek myths. I actually don't know Greek myths very well, haha. I know a few here and there and I'm pretty familiar with the major gods but yeah.
I'll get back into Greek myths when I'm done with the Norse ones, which still confuse me sometimes. HOW DID THEY ALL MANAGE TO KILL EACH OTHER, GOD FUCKING DAMMIT.

(I still say my so-far favorites are Icarus and Sisyphus. The labyrinth is nice, too)


HAVE I EVER TOLD YOU ABOUT HOW WHEN I WAS A CHILD, I HAD A NIGHTMARE ABOUT A JUMPING SPIDER-MOOSE????

ME AND MY DAD WERE ON A HUNTING TRIP IN THIS FOREST WITH VERY TALL, VERY THIN TREES (WITH NO LEAVES) AND THERE WAS THIS BIG-ASS, EIGHT LEGGED MOOSE THAT WOULD JUST JUMP DOWN AND WE WERE TRYING TO SHOOT IT.

IT JUMPED DOWN BEHIND ME AND THEN STARTED TO SWALLOW ME WHOLE AND I COULD FEEL IT'S DULL TEETH PRESSING DOWN ON MY RIBS. MY DAD TRIED PULLING ME OUT BUT HE COULDN'T. I WOKE UP AFTER THAT.

IT WAS SO VIVID. I'M PRETTY SURE I DREAMT THAT LIKE NINE YEARS AGO.


That's probably why I like Sleipnir so much, haha. If anyone asks, I am a spider moose... and/or horse. Or spider. It doesn't matter, as long as I have eight fucking legs.

What would a spider snake look like?

Anyway. I also watched a Doodling In Math Class Video (they're by a youtuber called Vi Hart?? They're pretty cool. They're illustrations of mathematical concepts told in a more relate-able way, I guess???).

I watched one on the Fibonacci Sequence the other day and it made me so happy! I remember learning about that years ago, when this show came out about a little kid who could see the future. It all had to do with the Fibonacci Sequence and since then, I've liked the idea because it really does appear a lot in the natural world.

Anyway, the videos explained why the Fibonacci Sequence shows up so often and it made me happy, to finally understand it.

Later, I went to go get my hair done.

That took like three hours but it was okay because the lady who did my hair was so nice.

She looked exactly like a real-life version of the Brave princess?? What was her name? Merida! She looked like Merida, no lie. Curly red hair and a round face.

I'ma call her that. Merida told me about how she went to my high school and had social anxiety. She switched to a full-time Quest program, though, so her classes got very small after that.

(Quest is not the real name of the program. I dunno if schools outside this district have it. It's basically this thing where kids go for half a day and take specialized classes if they know what they want to do after high school.

Laney and Lily will be going to Quest half days for the culinary arts. Or maybe they decided not to. Anyway, it's an option, but I didn't know you could actually stay there all day.)

MY HAIR IS NOW CHOCOLATE BROWN. I'm still pretty weirded out by that, but it's nice. Before it was almost black fading into a dark blonde.

Not on purpose, haha. It's just my hair used to be a light brown and that faded into a light blonde. And then my hair grew out and it's naturally near-black.

Okay.

I could also tell you about the other things I've learned these past couple days, which is surprisingly a lot.

And I finished the Scarlet Letter yesterday.

But I won't because this is already long and I'm tired.

No, I'm not. I just don't feel like writing anymore.


PS:

I ordered a shirt from Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin!!!!!! They have a new album out. I'm listening to it now. I dunno if I like it all that much.


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