✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2015-08-14 19:41:48 (UTC)

Our Beds Are Crowded

Dear Reader,

They say that you never forget your first.


Since Monday, I've just been floating through this week, in complete shock, looking for anything to distract me.
Talking to anyone that will talk to me.
Drawing and writing and doing chores and preparing for the yard sale tomorrow and cleaning my room over and over.

Because I can't bare to think about him.
About us.
About what will never be again.

We broke up Monday...
And the realization finally hit me last night.
I started crying and saying over and over that it'll be okay...
It hurts now but it won't forever...

But then I realized that...
The pain won't ever go away completely..

I can't stop thinking about what he thinks of me now..
What he'll remember me as..
If he misses me...


It's tempting to add him back..
but I know if he even took me back, the same things that pushed me away would still be there.

He probably thinks that I'm a bitch...

I'll tell the story later.

It hurts too much to think about right now.


Have you ever heard the quote: "Our beds are crowded"
Think about what it means.
I'll write about it later.

Sincerely,
HeartBroken




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