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NewLifeinMTL
2015-08-09 23:40:10 (UTC)

adulting causes migraines

i've been in deep thought mode for a while worrying about my future and what would be the right steps for me to get where i want to go. i mean i'm only working two days a week at a job that i dont even really want. and spending all the rest of my time moping around i've been juggling my options and i had an idea of moving up to park city for the winter and working in a resort setting that isnt so reliant on repeat clientele to see how things go. but the more i think about it i just get worried and confused and end up with a migraine. cuz i know i want to get away from here for a while but i keep thinking and getting discouraged about the fact that anywehere that i move too will be an adjustment because i have almost no bills or expenses living with my mom and anywhere that i move too i will suddenly have all of these expenses to juggle and what if i dont make enough to support myself? If only i had the guts to become a sugarbaby. i've also thought about my second option which would be to continue searching for jobs that i can commute to from home everyday so i dont really increase my expenses but hopefully increase income. sadly where i live is not really that big on wellness and massage. so you really ahve to search for good jobs and you'll be extremely lucky if you get a job that actually pays decent. i mean i'm making roughly minimum wage granted i'm only working like 11 hours a week right now. but i dont want to become a retail slave in massage envy's system. all this adulting keeps giving me migraines. sad part is, my life has gotten tremendously easier like for me to deal with emotionally and everything since high school. but at the same time i feel like i'm fucking drowning cuz i have no one to talk to about all this. no one to come sit with me and listen to me vent and vent to me about their problems. no one for me to hang out with and relieve stress. i'm taking on all this stress and have no one to help carry the load.




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