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MyDarknessLives
2015-07-02 16:26:02 (UTC)

Day 1

Day 1 of new medication
Class: Anti-Psychotic
Name: Asenapine
Brand/generic name: Saphris

Wow is all I can say, I never had a medicine like this. First of all it's disgusting, why? Because it's not a pill you swallow but you have to set it under your tongue and let it melt and it is absolutely revolting. "Black Cherry" Comes off really strong flavored and bitter. I used to stay up till 3 in the morning every night before I decided to be more responsible and be in bed between 11-12 and asleep by 1, so last night I did my nightly routine of taking my medicine, shower, netflix.

Sometime between 9 and 10 P.M I take my medicine and shower, however I started watching a new show that airs its new episode at 9 PM and lasts an hour so I took my meds at 10, already taken a shower earlier around 7:40 after coming home from swimming. A little nervous, I wondered when I would see any effect and it did not take long. I got very very tired so I put all my stuff away and fell asleep between 10:30-11:30 which is unusual for me, I woke up early and again took my medicine BAM felt like I was drugged and I had to sleep again, at first I didn't like it but its like a fantasy that came true I love the idea of having a medicine that puts me to sleep, naturally I would want it to be instant like the drug they use on you during surgery but this will do. I entered into the dream world, my favorite world, a world without worry, regret, or sadness and enjoyed a good dream and woke up around 11 AM. Overall today I have been mildly depressed but not overbearing, and very calm, I don't know if it is the new med because its my first day but I will have to wait and see, this might be a game changer.

I had 2 options for supper tonight, receive $10 and scrounge up what I can or go to the fireworks bbq thing, which I thought about but in the end I decided the 10 dollars will do me fine and I think soon I will go to subway, not much you can do with 10 dollars :/ . Every day from the moment I wake up I look forward to going back to sleep again and while the dreams feel like they don't last long I feel at home and at peace in most of them so I am ok with this overbearing drowsiness and maybe if I time things just right I might be sleeping all day. i know some people oversleep and honestly I wish I was one of those people.




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