LustingforNightmares

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2015-06-25 22:35:56 (UTC)

Perfect Petzzz

10:37 PM

A CONVERSATION I WANTED TO SAVE FOR SOME REASON??
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Alexis: thats why i said it

Me: oHHH
OH
ok i get it now

Alexis: (duh veronica)

Me: the understanding dawned too late
all was lost

Alexis: the village burned down
Alexis: OMG
MY FAVORITE THING EVER

Me: WHAT WHAT
(maybe i should watch anime because a lot of these pen pal people are
really into it)

Alexis: I WAS CLEANING A HOUSE WITH OLD PEOPLE A FEW WEEKS AGO AND WE WERE
ABOUT DONE AND ONE OF THE OLD LADIES WAS LIKE "oh no i know the way
the wind is blowing"*queue old lady voice* AS IN NOPE ITS MY TIME
TO GO

Me: WAIT DID SHE SAY THAT LAST THING OR
WAIT I THINK I GOT IT HAHAHAHHAA
OMG
OLD LADY GOALS THAT WILL BE ME

Alexis: IDK WHY BUT I LIKE THE PHRASE
(no veronica you do you dont change yourself to impress your pens)
Alexis: (those messages were supposed to send with the last)

Me: I KNOW I GOTCHU I GOTCHU
I KNEW U WAS GON SAY THAT AND GOOD BC
I DONT HAVE TIME TO WATCH ALL THOSE SHOWS ANYWAY
WHAT EVEN IS SAILOR MOON WHAT
HOW DO U SAIL... ON THE MOON....
OBVIOUSLY THESE PPL HAVEN'T EXPERIENCED SCIENCE

Alexis: OBVIOUSLY YOU HAVNT EXPERIENCED A LITTTLE SOM'N SOM'N EITHER
ITS CALLED IMAGINATION
I've just realized that this is the first time in like my whole
life that I'm not obsessed with something
Alexis: Wtf
What is lifge
Buddhisms working

Me: IMAGINATION DOESNT EXIST
you're JUST...
(WAIT FOR IT...)
...IMAGINING IT
hah
Me: (times like these i ask myself: was it worth it?)
"Buddhisms working" -Alexis [insert last name here], 2015

Alexis: senior quote
veronica you got deep idk what you were talking about
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11:54 PM

I have goldfishies and I'm feeling better about April. Her eyes are mahogany. A very warm, reddish brown. I decided that when I first got her. We stare into each other's eyes a lot. I wonder if she thought about the color of my eyes. I wonder if she watched me when I slept. I wonder if she thought it was weird that my eyes moved back and forth even though they were closed.

Anyway.

Things are... good, in a weird way. I have an appointment with Pat on Monday and maybe that's what's keeping me from stabbing myself in the temple, hahaha. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy!!! I'm just... also not happy. I don't know. It doesn't make sense, I'm just as confused as you are and I want to stop thinking.

I'M TRYING TO FIND A PEN PAL! I was talking to Dude about it and he gave me his address so now he's my pen pal :) I forget how old Dude is, though. I think he's 18 now. I was kind of hoping to be able to write to someone my age.

I also signed up for this site and hopefully I can make some friends there. This is my profile:

http://www.penpalworld.com/profile.asp?uid=10795694

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MORE THINGS:

On Saturday, Dad'll take me downtown so I can get my permit and I think after that we'll go to the humane society so I can pick up a volunteer form. I've been meaning to volunteer ever since I turned fourteen and just never got around to it. I'm excited!

Animals are cute and soft and I want to work with them, even if I have to clean up their poop.

I might go to a church dinner with my Dad tomorrow. I don't have to go but I kind of want to be a better person all around, which includes being a better daughter. He always wants us to go to his events so I might just do it if I'm not too worried about the doggy dog.

Oh, she's upstairs now. I don't know how she got up, but she did. She actually seems alright.

This is kind of sick and weird but once, about nine or so months before getting April (I was living in California), my parents bought me this stuffed doggy thing. I had been really anxious for a dog at that time. I mean, I spent MONTHS begging. Having a dog was the only thing I ever wanted, ever. (My parents are so good to me)
To tame me, they bought that dog toy. I think they're called Perfect Petzzz? They have batteries inside of them and when you turn them on, their chests start moving like they're breathing.

They always look like they're asleep.

That's what April kind of reminds me of, right now. Not really a dog, just a mechanical toy meant to delude desperate children.

EDIT: Originally, I had said Furreal Friends but that's something else. It's actually Perfect Petzzz. And also, that link doesn't work unless you have an account... sorry?


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