LustingforNightmares

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2015-06-19 12:29:44 (UTC)

WORLD = STRESS


June 19, 2015 Friday 12:29 PM


Gosh, I wish I had something to DO. It half makes me wish I was still at school.

I just finished my last exam, so that means I am official on summer break and I don't know how I feel about that??? I want to go places to meet people but I have nowhere to go. And no excuse to meet people, haha. Mehhh.

The test was difficult and I think I probably did horrible but I'm having a hard time caring all that much???

I love Lily. Whenever we're in her car, we listen to country music (most of the time, she drives a truck so it fits, too). The other day, I said, "How do you listen to country music?"

And she was like, "It all sounds the same! It's a guarantee that I'll always like it!" or something like that.

aw I love her, that has to be the best reason I've ever heard in defense of that music genre.

NEWS:

Mo is moving to the city!!! He's not my friend and never has been but!!! I liked him! I had this respect for him and his "fuck it" attitude!!! Plus, he was very strange and unique. I had a short conversation with him maybe once??? And he sat at my lunch table sometimes when Adrian was there. MAN, THAT SUCKS. ://////

Malcolm confessed his love to Alexis. Alexis is a lesbian, in case you didn't remember. Malcolm knew this, I think. I dunno, Alexis told me (and Polaris) because she felt really bad about it :/ Poor Alexis. Poor Malcolm. Ahhh.

DISCOVERIES:

Understanding people and why they do certain things doesn't make me any less angry at them and I am very sad about that.
I know understanding does not equal forgiveness but still...

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I brushed up against my doggy this morning and she was very warm. I thought about how she has blood in her veins, blood everywhere else, too. I thought about how that blood will stay there but it'll stop moving sometime soon.

She ate some bread and peanut butter. Wouldn't eat the food in her bowl.

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I thought about a small town hundreds of miles away.

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I thought about feminism. I still do not identify with feminism. That doesn't mean I don't think women and men should be equal.

I do believe that, but it doesn't make me a feminist, as much as they say that it does. Based on the overall population of feminists, equality isn't really their only criteria.

I'm not anti-feminist either. I try to learn about both sides of the story. Most of the time, milder feminists and milder anti-feminists have pretty much the same outlook on the world, haha.

I mostly agree with the milder ones.

Based on the information I've learned (in other words, I could be wrong) women and men are unequal in this country, but I don't really think that is the priority.

To be honest, I mostly stress about the Earth dying. I sound kinda hippie-ish, I know, but I really do worry. Even if we stop using fossil fuels now, the levels of carbon dioxide in the atmosphere will continue to go up and that makes me want to scratch out my eyeballs becasue WAHT DO I DO WHTAAA

I JUST WANT ALL OF US TO LIVE IN TREES AND CROSS BRIDGES TO EACH OTHER'S HOUSES, LIKE IN THE SIXTH STAR WARS MOVIE (sixth as in the third one made, Luke Skywalker is the star, yeah yeah).

I WANT US TO TRY AND LIVE WITH THE WORLD INSTEAD OF ON IT BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY THIS THING WE'RE DOING NOW ISN'T WORKING OUT UGHHH

Okay. I am chill.

Global issues really stress me out because I just want to??? Stop them??? Now?

Okay. I'm going to go now. I'll let you know if I have any thoughts later, but I'm pretty sure that I'M DEAD I'M DEAD I'M ALIVE BUT I'M DEAD

(today I have made two references to movies my dad made me watch repeatedly when I was a child.

Scroll back up and try to find them!

If you couldn't, scroll down for solutiojn


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1. Star Wars, obviously

2. The Incredibles


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