Jack's Twisted Kingdom
Mind Game XIX
“Lovers may be - and indeed generally are - enemies, but they never can be friends, because there must always be a spice of jealousy and a something of Self in all their speculations.”
“I have to speak my mind. Because what is in my mind is always more interesting than what is happening in the world outside my mind.”
~ John Wilmot
I am awake. Too often I desire things and quibble about them, argue with myself, the raging quiet of them seems to resonate with mine own interlocutor at the bowels of my acidic soul, sundered oft by the winters blow mourning for burbon, a cubanos cigar, and 18 year old scotch whilst sitting on beachfront overlooking the storm.
I am want to rely on others, to trust, but I am mercurial, and no good has ever come to me trusting too much. That is the lesson, to survive one must be willing to sacrifice themselves against the bulwark of invasion, if only to be left thrashed upon the waves.
I have had cake, I have eaten it, and it was bile.