Not talking much. Hayward at 12. Doc appt. Jose didnt let us use his car by giving bullshit reason. So couldnt move for cousin today. Rushed to Oakland foot massage. One of best I've had in the US. Pick dad up. Drop off clothes for Phil. Home. Long talk with dad. He thinks I should abort the baby and break up with him since we don't get along and he has problems. Long talk, I decided to listen to him and Yung and try to change. He came back from his mom's. Ate dinner st almost 12. Watched a little bit tv, came downstairs. Gave him a bj. Fell asleep.