Lindams123

The Days of my Life
2015-04-27 08:46:17 (UTC)

Ive given up

Im sitting here crying my eyes out with no solutions... no answers... I now see nothing is wrong with me... I want a more sexual relationship, cuddly, honest, fun, adventureous, a lover to lay with... one to rub my feet, my back, take care of me, work... do all the things I do for them... Nope, Im STUCK with a drug addict asshole... who only cuddles me when it convient for them. I hate how much I love his face/body/and scent... His way of love is rottening my soul. Ive wasyed my 20's on believing in a fairy tale... Wishing the fairy tale was true... Its all nothing but make believe. I did have a talk with him earlier... about how im insecure with myself because of all these girls he went for... maybe I should give up.
New rules:
No more massages unless done first
No more touching unless done first
No more asking for a hug/lay/cuddle (")
No more gifts
No more giving money away
No more buying drugs
No more drugs
No more trying
Be done, lose the lust in his looks
Lose the one way deal
Lose loyalty
Lose thought of a future
Lose hope
Lose your feelings...
Lose trying to impress...
Time to forget again...
(Hes just another one who is gonna get married after your gone)
(Young 23 yr old brunette/blue eyes, prep who will change his life, be his wife, have 3 kids and forget about me)
(I am just a stepping stone for someones own healing/test dummy)
Nothing more like always... I am so lost -_-

GOD- send me a good guy who will be as loyal and even more hansome with no kids I can start my life with... who has no problems with drugs or legal stuff </3




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