responsibilites and expectations
I can't handle them.
I want to be free of responsiblities.
I can't stop getting shots of bad feelings. I can't explain it. Consistently throughout the day I get bad feelings.
Half of me is sick of living, maybe thee quarters. The other part of me occasionally shows and wants me to do something with my life fucking anything.But then demotivation and doubt kick in and it dies down.
I am nothing. I'm not sure I will ever be anything. I'm not sure I want to care about anything anymore.