Ordinarylifeandmarriage

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2015-04-22 17:56:37 (UTC)

Mistake

I'm life we often make a mistake and sometimes we do regret what we've done. I made those mistake and regret it but cannot take it back. Before I had my daughter. I met someone online and he became someone kind of special to me but never met him in person. We were or maybe I'm having problems with him. I've been asking him for a child but he always give me a reason why we cannot. His reasons were I'm in school, I'm too busy, cannot afford it, etc etc... Remind you, he has a 14 or 15 year old daughter at this time. I told him that I'm not getting younger and I want a child. I also decided to tell this man I met that I need to stop and cut it off. I am a married woman and cannot be doing this kind of thing. I finally got fed up and wasn't very happy with him and my marriage. I told him that we need to go somewhere and talk. I drove us somewhere and I stop at a parking lot. I told him that I'm not happy anymore. I have been telling him this, that I want a baby. I've waited for 8 years. No matter how much I love him he cannot fill this hole in my heart. There is something missing in my life. If cannot give me what I want then I want a divorce. I cried so hard because it's hard for me to face that I cannot be with this person whom I love because he is unwilling to give me what I need. He cried and plead for me not to leave. Seeing his face begging for me to stay made me weak. I end up staying. Then one day on our way home while sitting in traffic. He talked to me and told me that he's ready. He's ready to have a baby with me. I told him that: "I hope your not f*%$ing with me because I'm going to kill him if he is. But he wasn't. By December 24th I found out I'm pregnant with our first baby. It was the nicest new I got that Christmas Eve.


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