Nadia

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2015-03-24 01:19:01 (UTC)

I don't know what to do. I write lists,..

I don't know what to do. I write lists, I make goals, I try to find motivation. But I never do any of it, I can't. I just put it off.

My life is so unorganised.
Assumed C grade? the angry part of me wants to fight back and and get A's, but I can't find the motivation.

Almost every assignment I have put off.

I don't feel like I'm interesting anymore, I"m so sad right now. I'm sick of my life. I keep saying it aha. No one really cares though, just the occasional "you'll be fine".

Noticed that it's getting colder too, as my mood gets sadder. Definitely correlating factors.
I don't feel like I can really talk to anyone either. I think that's what happens? if I can't find anyone I can really like.. talk to about my personal problems or worries I resort to this diary.

I invaded Jacob's privacy and last night while he was in the shower I went on his phone, I wanted to see if he'd talked to Brooke at all. He'd been talking to some Amy girl and some of the messages were slightly flirty, winky faces and shit. Idk. I've felt shit since last night about it. I mean I don't want to but I can't help it.
I wish he'd want me so much he wouldn't have to do that. He never talks to me like that anymore, long messages and stuff. I'm so sad.
It's not just that. I constantly feel inadequate compared to everyone around me.i'm a waste of space? like really you could try and comfort me but I am not good at anything, nor do I try to be. I'm just one of those people that complains and does nothing about it.


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