Vanilla

Reality kicked in.

Its become a bit clearer now. The shock and pain has passed and reality is settling in.

Can i be with someone who is 38 while i am 25. When i am 27 he will be 40. How will this work?

Theres just so many questions.

this is the prime of my life where i can date, enjoy, travel, i am just discovering life, i could discover that there is someone else out there for me. But the weird thing is that....i am indeed smitten over this man. Maybe not even smitten, but emotionally into him. im not quote sure if i can call it "love" but it stands that the minute i set my eyes on him i wanted him. was this me being young and naive? am i capable of making that kind of judgement. i read up online...to prepare for what people's opinions would be on this type of a relationship.

What about our sex life? my sex drive is high. I need that type of activity often, whereas him...he has slowed down. It is good that he has never been married or had children.