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Story of a Girl
2015-03-02 17:49:42 (UTC)

No proficiency test.. yet

So... turns out that there weren't any proficiencies today.

I KNEW I DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WORRY/STRESS ABOUT.

I mean, yeah, there were proficiencies, but those were for juniors & I think maybe even seniors, so those didn't have anything to do with Guy & I. We don't take our science proficiency until Wednesday, so... we're good.

Here's the thing though.

My chemistry teacher has spent like 2 fucking weeks having a science boot camp during class, where he helped us study for the science proficiencies, specifically... Us, as in, the 90% of juniors that make up my chemistry class. Not ONCE did he think to himself, "How many sophomores do I have in my class that will also be taking this exam?" Like, there are only 5-ish sophomores in my class, 1 senior (but he's a student aid so I don't even know if he counts) & everyone else are juniors. During the boot camp in class, he only seperated those who needed extra help from everyone else, who either passed their exams or students like me, who weren't supposed to take them this year. But at the end of last week, the principal was all like, "HEY, SOPHOMORES. YEAH, YOU ALL. Surprise, you're all taking an exam that you're completely unprepared for because we decided last minute to change the date of the test! Good luck studying all the materials from 8th grade until now! HAVE A NICE EFFING WEEKEND. DON'T GO TO SADIES BECAUSE YOU WON'T HAVE TIME TO STUDY."

Thanks, new principal. You're rad. Super cool.

I talked to one of the juniors today who's also taking the sciene proficiencies & she gave me the weirdest fucking look ever. "Uh... Sophomores don't take proficiencies. Especially the science one."

EX FUCKING XXXXXXAAACTLY.

Me: But we are taking them.

Her: Nooooooo.

Me: I literally just checked. It was on the announcements, too.

Her: ...Serious? Holy shit. Hope you studied because I forgot literally everything.

Me: AhhahahHAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm so screwed, help me. I have like today & tomorrow to study.

Her: I'll be there at your funeral.

Me: NU DON'T SAY THAT.

I'm so dead.

Especially because these tests kind of determine if I graduate or not.

I mean, I can take this test again next year if I bomb it, but I'll have to pay like $75 or $120 to retake them, & my school is paying for JUST this test, so... I should probably try to pass it, y'know? I THINK the test covers physical science, geo science, chemistry, & biology. I'm not entirely sure, but I'm pretty decent at physical science. I'll just need to refresh my memory with some things. And since I'm taking chemistry this year, I think I'll do okay with that. Biology, I might struggle with because that's one of my weakest subjects. Like, I can't even tell the difference between an animal & plant cell. (If you gave me diagrams of each cell, I'd probably be able to differentiate the two.) And I've always hated geo science, dunno why. I still don't understand anything, like the mantle or crust, or how tsunamis form & how tectonic plates work. BUT I STILL KNOW THE VOCABULARY.

Oooh, while I'm speaking of proficiencies, I found out that Matt & I are in the same testing room... I'm okay with that. It's just gonna be awkward because I'm spending I don't know how many hours with him in the same room. I could be spending all day with him, if we both don't understand the material. I'm probably gonna sit in my assigned seat & he's probably gonna do the same, so I dunno. There's also this one kid who I really hate & he's gonna be in that room, too. I hope he sits on the opposite side of the room or else I'll stab his eyes out when my pencil.

SPEAKING OF MATT; I kinda sorta talked to him. Kinda. I was stacking my chair & he was walking towards the stack of chairs where /I/ was stacking mine. So I was like, "No no no, wait!" And then he was laughing because there was spit on one of the chairs. So I laughed & then I stacked my chair onto of the one with spit. I thanked him & he, in a low voice, said you're welcome. He stacked the chairs & left. And that was it. BUT I KIND OF TALKED TO HIM. One, extremely small step to getting to apologize to him. That was a lot of effort for me, though. I never initiate any contact first, so just telling him to wait was a huge deal for me. Like, I know something like this is small & it's nothing I should think about, but I'm a shy person. Like I said, I never talk first so the fact that I actually said something really makes me feel kinda proud. I mean, I could have just turned around & stacked my chair somewhere else but I didn't. I'm so proud. Now if I could just do that everyday, I'd be happy.

He didn't seem to mad at me. I get that he's still not talking to me & sometimes he looks in my direction (only because he has to) but he was smiling & laughing at the spit. He has a nice smile. Maybe it was a fake smile because he's secretly making a list of everything he hates about me.

I dropped my sister off at her friend's house, since it's her birthday & my sister wanted to go to the birthday party. My mom, SURPRISINGLY, allowed her to go. So we took her to the store to get some things for her friend; a mini cake, a balloon, & a box of chocolates. I'd like to give a shoutout to our cashier, Byron (or was it Bryon? Pretty sure it was Byron) for being friendly & giving us a smile instead of the other workers who gave us attitude.. Also, shoutout to the guy working with the shopping carts! I know you guys don't get much appreciation but I want you all to know that I appreciate you collectin & organizing the carts!

It's 5:51PM so I think I'm gonna look for my science notes & study those for the proficiency test. I actually keep all my notes... THEY'RE FINALLY HANDY!

I'm also super obsessed with Silverstein - Replace You. (the acoustic version) It's been on repeat for 2 hours.

I said I'd never walk away, but I'm not able to staaaaay.

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I lied about studying; it's 8:11PM & I honestly just want to lay in bed doing absolutely nothing. Like, my phone is at 23% & I have nothing better to do, no homework, but I really don't want to study for the test.

I'm definitely getting somewhere in life.

I posted a status on Facebook earlier about wanting a pet duck (because this swapmeet sold ducks for $10) & I still haven't deleted my mom... she told me to get used to having the dogs. I'LL CLEAN AFTER THE DUCK, I PROMISE.




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