theolor

MyDarknessLives
2015-02-23 22:20:02 (UTC)

Therapy makes me tired.

I hated the idea of going to therapy and I believed it would not work, going and talking makes me very tired but I end up feeling good afterwords, I am still very skeptical though. My medicine is not really working, I am still having super fast mood swings and today is the last day of taking 100mg and then tomorrow I start the 200mg pills, I hope that will work.

Today I feel really numb, no real emotions at all. I do not feel my mania, depression, mixed state, or even my dark passenger, I just feel numb. I know some people may hate the feeling of being numb but for me it feels refreshing a little bit like I don't have to feel anymore and I dread the moment I have another mood swing. I hope this numbness lasts because it is the only light in my emotional and mental state right now. The numbness comes few and far between, I wish I felt like this more and I believe it has been weeks if not a month or so since the last time I felt like this.




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