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Story of a Girl
2015-02-08 20:34:01 (UTC)

He's a fuckboy

If someone you didn't love asked you to date them, & you knew you knew you'd never get asked again, would you accept or decline their proposal?

I have a friend in my band-- Brittany. She's a... senior, I think. Tall, white, & a little bit awkward. She's got some asian/german blood in her somewhere. I don't want to be rude in anyway when I say this, but she's often made fun because of the way she looks. Maybe it's her height, since she's the tallest female I know of. Maybe it's her teeth. Maybe it's the unibrow everyone tends to point out behind her back. Maybe it's the way she speaks; so unclear that even /I/ can't comprehend what she says. I seriously don't want to sound rude because she's my friend & all, but this is how one of my other friends explained it to me. She usually hangs out with the other "uncool" band students... The ones that are usually left forgotten. I guess I consider myself one of them, because I don't necessarily like talking to the "known" band members. I'm not a part of their clique, y'know?

Anyway, some brass members (big surprise) tend to make fun of Brittany for her looks & personality. I overheard one of their conversations after school before sectionals... They tend to make fun of her because they think she's ugly, & because she's "ugly," they know she'll never get asked out. Since that day when I heard them talk, I've noticed some things in their behaviour. They tend to catcall her a lot. "Ayeee, lookin' good today." "How YOU doin'?" "Beautiful as always." I feel really bad for Brittany because they're just toying with her & she actually believes what they say. They LAUGH at her behind her back when she takes it seriously.

She had a boyfriend for, I think, 4 or 5 months. They broke up because her mom found out that they were dating & he felt weird about it--he was so weirded out that he just started ignoring her. She told me that he was going to break up with her anyway, apparently. During the time they were together, the same brass boys catcalled her & she'd laugh, "Haha, stop, I have a boyfriend!" At least she was loyal. I overheard another conversation-- "Man, she's dated everyone except for junior over there." "Aye Jykes, ask her out bruh." "Aha hell nah, why would I ask her out?" Was it true, did she date all of them? It must've happened before my freshman year, but it's none of my business. Hearing that conversation made me change the way I thought about her & her relationships.

She'd come to me sometimes for relationship advice-- this was probably her first relationship. She always seemed nervous to ask me, but I have this calm exterior going on, so she always asked. She'd often ask if she should make out with him, kiss him, or when it was appropriate to hug him. I remember her telling me she admired my relationship with Elías, & she wanted something similar to what we had. We were her "relationship goals." It felt nice to hear that from someone, it really did.

So they broke up & she seemed really happy about it. Maybe not happy, but she looked like it didn't really affect her. It was as if she dropped her ice cream on the ground but she was completely okay with it because she had an unlimited supply of ice cream in her freezer. Just like that. I didn't bother asking about the break up because it honestly wasn't any of my concern. She was pretty happy being single.

So, here's another thing. This happened freshman year. But yeah, I was a freshman & it was my first year in beginning band. It was great & I LOVED coming to class until second semester... Some kid decided to "join" the class. (He wasn't enlisted in the class, but for whatever reason, he was always in the classroom playing along with us.) My friend Anne was a junior at the time, & she was friends with the kid, Dejone. (Yep, stereotypical black name for a stereotypical black dude.) They were pretty good friends & she introduced me to him. At first I thought he was a nice guy but he just started getting really creepy, so I began disliking him. I don't know, but something about him didn't feel right to me... And no, it had nothing to do with the fact that he was black. So Anne was gone one day & we had a fire drill. We were walking outside when he confronted me.

"You okay?"

Me: Yup. Fine. (I didn't make it obvious enough that I didn't want him there.)

Dejone: You look cold.

Me: Nope.

We began making our way back inside.

Dejone: Can I tell you something?

Me: What?

Dejone: I like you.

Me: Oh.

Dejone: ...Not the response I was expecting.

Me: I don't believe you.

Dejone: What? How do you not believe me?

Me: I don't believe you. You don't like me. It's impossible. Plus, I have a boyfriend. I'm loyal as fuck. (Because Elías missed class that day for something senior-related.)

Dejone: ..Alright. Huh. One day, you'll believe me. You'll believe me.

Me: I'll be waiting for that day then. I highly doubt I'll believe you then.

The rest of the day was really weird.

The next day, both Anne & El were back in class. Anne & Dejone kept talking, & I avoided them as much as possible. I heavily disliked Dejone then. I told Elías about it, & he almost threw himself at the guy, but I convinced him not to. I didn't want any fights happening.

A few months later, I found out that Anne & Dejone were dating. WHAT THE FUCK MAN. No. You can't just date a girl & then try to go after her friend at the same time. NO. YOU DON'T DO THAT. NO. One of my other "friends" told me that they've been dating for a while. They called each other baby & shit... Which made sense, since they always talked. I was pretty pissed at Dejone for attempting to get at two girls. I disliked him even MORE & I wanted nothing to do with him.

I saw Dejone again this year. I was seriously convinced that he had moved schools until I saw them walking my way during lunch. They both called my name & my face dropped.

"BIANCA!"

"...Shit."

My entire school year was ruined because I just couldn't like him. I absolutely wanted nothing to do with him. He didn't show up to band until the end of first quarter, where he'd sometimes come to class. Sometimes he'd stay after class & I'd still be there. During lunch, I was helping my band director sell food when he & Anne came to announce that they were getting engaged... I wasn't going to say anything. In my mind, I thought that they were making a huge mistake because THEY'RE FUCKING TEENAGERS WHOSE BRAINS WEREN'T FULLY DEVELOPED & THEY WERE INCAPABLE OF MAKING BIG DECISIONS LIKE MARRIAGE. But I didn't say anything; my band director said it for me.

She had the same look as I did. "...I hope you realize you're stuck with her for the rest of your life."

Dejone: Haha, true!

And then he looked at me. I tried to change my kind of disgusted look into a smile but that failed.

On our way to class, Anne would tell me about their marriage. Apparently, they already had rings & everything but his mother found out & "sabotaged" them...

Brittany told me a few days ago that she was dating Dejone. I had the same "What the fuck" face as I did when Anne said they were getting married.

I even asked her, "Um... Isn't Anne dating him?"

Britt: No... He broke up with her but she thinks they're still dating.

I don't know, but if my friend dated someone, I wouldn't date their ex. That's just me, though.

I'm pretty sure it's going to backfire on them. Anne will eventually find out that they're dating & Brittany will lose a friend...

I was a little shocked that they're dating, & I still am. Maybe I'm thinking about this incorrectly, but Dejone appears like the type of guy to be in a relationship just because. It doesn't matter if he actually loves the girl or not, as long as he has a girlfriend, he couldn't care less. I mean, doesn't it seem like that? Of course, I don't know anything about them, but this is just how I see it.

I'm convinced that he doesn't love her at all. And does Brittany really love him? With the conversation from the brass members, I feel like she's just as desperate to be in a relationship as Dejone. I mean, the brass members "dated" her, even though they didn't like her, & she actually believed them. And Dejone doesn't even acknowledge her as his girlfriend... Now that I think about it, I'm pretty sure Dejone was just trying to get into Anne's pants by giving her the delusion of marriage. HA. As if he really wanted marriage. I'm pretty sure he never had rings or anything. And now that he's tired of Anne, he goes on to Brittany.. who's next, Brittany's other friend who is ALSO in a relationship? I'm willing to bet that he is.

I don't know.

Dejone just seems like someone she shouldn't be with. There's something weird about him & I'm a little scared to find out what it is...

I wonder who else he's going to go after.

Maybe I'm wrong about all of this. But, doesn't it kind of make sense, in a way? I want to tell Brittany how I feel about her relationship but she seems happy & I don't want to ruin whatever happiness she has.

I have a feeling-- and my feelings have never failed me. Something's off about him... but what is it?




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