The Rat

2014-12-05 20:44:58 (UTC)

Convincing myself of weird things

I smelled burning the other day in a restaurant. Logic told me something burnt in the kitchen, but I started thinking I was possibly on fire. Then my face felt hot and I kept thinking my hair was on fire. I patted at my head and started to panic and ran outside for air. Then I realized I definitely was not on fire.

I have had moments like this before, but it has been frequent lately.

Before this, about a month ago, I was at Alex's house and did not understand where I was or if I was real so much to a point I thought I was slipping into schizophrenia. I didn't understand who Alex was. I thought my throat was closing up. I realize now I was having a panic attack from dissociating so bad.