78jon

Real Holy Spirit occurrence
2014-12-03 06:14:51 (UTC)

Fuck people

I finally learned. It doesn't matter if I'm that kid who brought about Holy Spirit works. It doesn't matter if I got hanged and strangulated 3 times so some bad men got what they deserve. It doesn't matter if I took a leaking heart valve as an impairment to try and prevent the world trade center collapse. It doesn;t matter that I bled to death so a woman doesn't get killed in a local convenience store. None of the other good things matter. People EXPECT people do do good things and get nothing. People only bring up the BAD in your life. People have to make me suffer for my past heroin addiction and treat me like dog shit because I'm a diseased ex junky. People don't want a person like that getting a decent life together. It's not fair to the rest of the crowd. People have to make it FAIR for the other working guys. Whatever good came about from the Spirit works makes no difference to people. That actually had detrimental negative impact on my future. It's a problem. I never serve 10 years in the army. I never was an EMS. I never was a firefighter. I think those are the only positive things people will pull in a persons past. My positives are when I was a kid, they're a fucking joke to people. I should stay that little adorable baby boy, and of course the women will get their "men". People seriously don;t give a fuck. They'd rather have me poor as fuck, homeless, in a flop house, etc. because they know I can generate a conversation when I need it. People are willing to converse with the damn near bum who had those Spirit works. I don;t think they're willing if my attitude changes because I got a good job and a new car. Ha, my "things" would be what changed me. I could fuck off then, I'm not that bum piece of shit walking the streets WISHING I could get a life. THAT is the guy little store workers and people address. It's almost like people have the "placement" power over me. Where will they let me be placed? That's right, it;s unfair if I wind up "good" due to my drug history. People are assholes. Fuck people. The more good you bring into society for free, the more people want you to be where people can give you that "free help" back. That's the case too, so people can give back what you give. If you;re a motherfucker who charges anyone for lifting a finger, well you get PAYED!!!! I learned, society is a flop. Don;t do shit for free. Don't even be an EMS worker for free. They'll make sure your poor so people can "help " you in return. Suicide is a GREAT option.




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