rdac_12614

Me being me
2014-11-05 11:35:39 (UTC)

Rain rain go away!

I hate when it rains. I guess its because you can't do anything and the fact that I hate driving in the rain ugh it sucks ass! But what I hate the most is that watching the rain it just brings up a lot of fuss in my mind. I start to remember all the bad memories and all the good one and heart breaks ugh. But the one that keeps coming to my mind is the while Daniel thing. I guess because it happened this year and it hurt a lot! Even though this same year I found the love of my life and I'm getting married with him. Will the whole Daniel thing still gets to me. More because I was the dummy to stay with that jerk who made me believe that he loved me. Even though he didn't have time for me or he would make an excuse to be with me (work). Yea I know work is important but I think if you really love somebody and want to make a future with him will why not make time. Imagine living through so many promises and actually being dumb enough to believe it!? Will this girl finally got tired of it after opening my eyes the day Emmanuel died on July 25. He was my cousin/bestfriend/brother. I loved him soo much he was the only one who actually understood me and never judged me. When I lost him I was still with Daniel he knew I called him the day he died. But he acted like he didnt care. Why? Will that jerk always had jelousy towards him saying that he liked me which it wasnt true. But I expected since he was my boyfriend at the time that he would atleast be by my side. Will wrong! NO he wasnt by my side even though he knew it was the most hardest thing for me. That whole week I still had faith that atleast he would come over or atleast make a phone call me to say something. But no that week he didnt call nor text me or atleast come by to see me. I realized then that why try to be with him if he was the one that obivously didnt want nothing to do with me. Will i finally grew some balls to tell him and will what can I say he over reacted about it but I was glad that I finally did something about it. Will the days past,weeks, and a couple of months but I couldnt seem to get him out of my mind. Even if i even tried dating other guys.(which i totally regret because I dated a phsyco)But nothing seemed to get him out of my mind. Then on January I meet this guy on Facebook. And will hes from Noth Carolina. Oh My God he was the perfect guy. He totally got my mind off of Daniel but one day without even thinking of this guy me and my crazy mind decided to look for Daniel on facebook. And BOOM! I found him, I messeged him and he responed will he gave me his number and will we talked all night I mentioned to him that I was going to Mexico that following week but I still wanted to see him before i left. Like always making excuses why he couldnt go see me. Will he had mentioned to me that he was working in town. So I figured it would be a good idea to go see him and take him some lunch so i did and i finally got to see him. Imagine i hadnt seen him since my graduation on june and now being febuary i barly see him! Will i saw him and it literally made my day even though i was talking to the other guy on facebook. That same night Daniel called me pissed off saying that he had seen my psycho ex boyfriend and wanted to start a fight. Which to me it was a relief because he was going crazy and he wouldnt leave me alone. But being in the middle of both guys (facebook guy and Daniel) I still saw that facebook guy was the perfect guy. I guess Daniel was just like a Capricho as us mexicans say. But leaving to Mexico and coming back I got to the news that Daniel had gotten a bitch pregant not only that but way but way older then him and it honestly hurt me alot that I finally said hell no thats enough. I stoped talking to him but he would still call me and tell me that if things dont work wth him and her that he was gunna go find me were ever i was at. In other words im his second choice (i was never his first priority) which i understood i mean why leave a baby without a dad its not the babys fault that his dad is such a whore. But i was still talking to facebook boy and will i gave him a chance. And on April i decided to go to NC to meet him and start a new life with him. Which honestly i dont regret it at all because boy does he make me happy. I guess since it rained today it was good to acutally see that all that mess Daniel did to me came to something good. Thats why when i see him will if i ever do i want to say thank you for all the stuff he did to me because now im a happy person with my baby and will we getting marrided!! :)




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