LustingforNightmares

tumbleweed
2014-10-21 19:54:25 (UTC)

The Glow Clouds

"Decoration Day" by Drive By Truckers [this song reminds me a little bit of Free Bird by Lynyrd Skynyrd]

It's Decoration Day.
And I've a mind to roll a stone on his grave.
But what would he say.
Keeping me down, boy, won't keep me away.

[OK SEE IF YOU CAN LOOK UP THIS SONG AND READ THE BACKGROUND INFORMATION ON IT BECAUSE IT TELLS A REALLY GOOD STORY AND IT'S SUPER INTERESTING AND ABOUT MURDER; IT'S WRITTEN AND SUNG BY A RELATIVE OF THE MURDERER FROM THE POINT OF VIEW OF THE SON OF THE VICTIM. THE VICTIM GOT NO JUSTICE FOR HIS MURDER EITHER. IT'S JUST INTERESTING, OKAY???]

October 21, 2014 Tuesday 8:04 PM


How do I feel??? Uh... You know, it's funny; most of my thoughts are written in my mind as if I were typing up an entry. Black background and everything. Then, I finally go to write an actual entry and nothing seems to be important enough.

Some people make me feel boring. I hate the question, "What's up?"
I'm very rarely doing anything notable. I wish that instead, someone asked me what I was thinking. My mind is always speedy and a lot of the time, I am deep in thought. If asked what I'm doing, I'm probably on the couch watching netflix with a headache.

My life is just not that interesting so I don't think anyone should feel the need to ask about it; just ask how I am and what I'm thinking and ask my opinions on things or what I think is pretty or if I think YOU'RE pretty.

Actually, don't ask me that last one. That would make me feel required to say you're pretty and if I find you beautiful, I probably won't say it anyway because I have the feeling it'd be creepy.

WELL, THAT BRINGS US TO OUR NEXT SEGMENT, READERS!!!!

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PEOPLE I FIND KIND OF BEAUTIFUL

(and let me quickly specify that this shouldn't matter to anyone and these are also people I find beautiful from the inside out. There are people who I find beautiful who won't be on this list because I can't see their beauty glowing from the inside, do you know what i mean? probably not. Whatever. The glow is almost literal but mostly not. They're not actually light sources, haha, but you can SEE the pure life in them and it's breathtaking, okay? I have a bit of an artist's eye and maybe that's why I can see it but I'm sure it's not just exclusive to me, I'm sure the majority of people realize)

Lily - she's perfect??? how is that possible??? She is literally the perfect human size, like height size, boob size, waist size, leg size, EVERYTHING. Also, she has a flawless face and she's just really nice looking and then her personality somehow transcends all that so okay

depressed-hispanic-kid : i feel creepy saying this, but hey, whatever; really nice brown eyes and pretty curly hair and freckles and nice colored lips, too. Don't know him too well but I check his blog and all his replies to messages are intelligent and sarcastic and funny so yeah

Laney - SHE IS THE PERSONIFICATION OF A VAMPIRE BUNNY! soft, cuddly, and quite deadly. thanks, monty python. She can be kind of a bitch at times but whenever we hang out, she's mostly just really cute and she has such a nice smile and really pretty eyes and her eyelashes are ombre, man. Like, they go from light to dark. Or is it dark to light??

J - i feel creepy again because we're not friends anymore. whatever, his facial structure is insanely good and also his light blue eyes (they have yellow centers, like laney's) compliment his tan skin color really, really well. As for personality, he's really funny and easy to talk to. He's not too serious and is intelligent. Intelligence is nice

Aaron - I just wanted to say her name even though the glow that comes from her is cold and white, like the winter sun. She's pale and has nice freckles and dark hair that goes past her shoulders and blue eyes that are very, very cold. She feels things, obviously; the coldness does not mean she herself is cold. But she's a pretty anxious person and with that comes a good amount of anger that I am familiar with. I think the cold glow comes from the sarcasm that she transferred into Laney's personality last year and also, she's soft spoken with a slightly rough voice and I can't... I can't quite place what makes her so cold. What makes her later winter? IS IT HER BIRTHDAY? No. It's more.

Blue Eyes - he is just BEAUTIFUL even though I can't see the glow but that's because I don't know him other than that one time he introduced himself and what THE HELL is his name?? Um, he has curly brown hair and slightly lighter skin with blue eyes and his face is kind of perfect.

imjust_here07 - Umm she is perfect and flawless and she is the summer sun's golden kind of glow and she's natural and very, very kind so yes, she's beautiful. She appreciates all kinds of nature related things and her skin is really pretty and so are her hands, like, she are long and pale and just really nice. SHE'S THE ONLY PERSON I KNOW WHO FINDS MYTHOLOGY SUPER COOL AND HER MUSIC TASTE IS WONDERFUL <3

Jeff - I don't know him too well either but he goes to Peer Leadership. He's really nice and really, really beautiful. AGAIN WITH THE FACIAL STRUCTURE. IT'S IDEAL. Also, his eyes are stained with history and while it is beautiful, it's also sad because I have history in my eyes too and it ruins me. I am weak, though, so maybe it doesn't hinder him as much. Oh, also he's intelligent, which kind of just enhances a person's outer beauty.

Myra - she's really pretty and kind of everything I wished I could be. Mostly, I envy how outgoing she is and how confident she seems (because who knows, maybe she's broken inside. I wouldn't know). Also, her fACE DOES THAT BEAUTIFUL THING THAT MAKES IT REALLY NICE LOOKING AND I CAN'T PLACE WHAT IT IS, BUT she is just very gorgeous. Also, her green (are they green?) eyes contrast against her light brown skin color and her hair is thick and curly and brown and just natural and pretty. She's easy to talk to and makes me laugh a lot, so that's nice.

Adrian - this is a new person (new to my diary, not new as in "oh he was just birthed, look at that"). I always accidentally forget his name and call him this name in my head so... I needed another beautiful person and he is the first to come to mind because I've never seen anyone with his hair color. It's very bright orange/red and his face is really symmetrical and good looking. Most people find him annoying because he distracts teachers a lot of the time with anecdotes about history a lot. He probably has a really high IQ. Like, he is really, really smart. I know his mom, haha. She is Photographer Lady who helped Laney and I in April with my Olympics for The Visual Arts project. Anyway, I think stuff he says is interesting and you can tell he has a lot of life and doesn't really give a flying monkey fuck that he's so noticeable.


PS: there are probably people I didn't mention and this is most likely for one of the following reasons:

1) I forgot, sorry
2) You are not the firsts to pop into my head. This isn't the same as forgetting because if I had remembered, I might not have put you on the list anyway. This is because otherwise I'd probably have paragraphs about twenty five different people versus the ten I have now and I don't got no time for dat shiiiiit
3) I can't see the light in your eyes
4) I think your insides are rotten. You don't glow, you cast shadows

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I titled this glow clouds in reference to Welcome To Nightvale (ALL HAIL THE ALMIGHTY GLOW CLOUD. It rains various meats/carcasses onto the town and is part of the local PTA.). Clouds are nice and soft and light and they can be destructive if they decide to be so hey, that sounds like people and they glow from the inside. You can see now, right?

I have more to say, I guess, but I must go because I have Algebra 2/Trigonometry homework UGHHH FUNCTIONS ARE THE WORST.

I CAN'T FUNCTION SO WHY DO I NEED TO EXPLAIN ALL THESE NUMBER FUNCTION F OF FUCKING X THINGS. ughhh.

Goodnight, virtually non-existent readers. Goodnight.




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