DeliriusDreamer

Don't Think or Judge. Just Listen
2014-09-30 23:43:50 (UTC)

I'll never get my first kiss.

I'll never get my first kiss.

I know I haven't been on for a while, dear diary. In the last month I moved to my grandmother's, started University, played Grounders (for the first time in years!), got a nickname from some cute guys (I am know known as Giggles), joined a Glee group, joined an Ultimate Frisbee team, had theater auditions, and I survived through two midterms (Bio and Chem) and two tests (math). Pretty busy month, hunh? So forgive me for having forgotten about you for a while, but I am back. Maybe not as regularly as I want to, but still.

Now for the reason I actually came back. Read up to my random opening statement. I know it's stupid. I know it's (hopefully) not true. Eventually I'll meet someone and yadda yadda, the rest is history (and I promise you'll know all about it, dear Diary). But, for now, it just feels like that day will never come.

Why did this hit me all of a sudden, you may wonder. Well, you see, at University there are guys. Lots and lots of guys. Very hot guys. And I know a few very hot guys. Lets just say my small hometown forced me to have very low standards to what is considered hot, so I got here and DAMN. But I should've written that on the first day of orientation week, when I met said guys. Well, obviously, the guys aren't the only reason.

I made a friend recently, her name's Happy. Happy has a boyfriend, Quiet. Today I sat with both of them at lunch and two things happened.

1. I asked them a question about homework for a class we had in common, and both of them moved at exactly the same time, exactly the same way, to look up the answer on their laptops.
2. Some random girl asked us to watch her stuff for a few minutes so she could go to the bathroom. As soon as she left, Happy said: "We should just get up and leave!" and Quiet said: "Let's hide her stuff!" exactly at the same time. Then they just looked at each other and laughed.

Two really tiny, unimportant things. But things I want. I want to be able to just goof around with someone, to know each other so much that we sometimes do the exact same thing at the exact same time. For people to look at us when something funny happens and say:"And that's why you're dating". I want that, I really do, but I feel like I've been waiting for so long. Ever since I started grade nine,when I was fourteen, I've told myself every year: "This is it, this year I'm going to get kissed". Every year it doesn't happen. Now I'm almost nineteen and, seriously, it's starting to get a little pathetic. I thought I would've had a serious relationship by now, or at least semi-serious, but nothing. Niet. Nada. Romantic life kapoof.

Anyways, that was for my whining. Don't get me wrong, University is great. I love it, I'm having a blast (even with the insane amount of work I have to accomplish). Tomorrow the off-campus residence, TownHouse (for all the off-campus students who still want to participate in student life), will have a How to Train your Dragon 1&2 movie night, it's gonna be great! And when I played Grounders, it was the first time I'd played since middle school. It's funny how a bunch of stuff that are considered uncool in high school get back to being cool when you're in University. I feel like a kid again, just falling on my face and laughing about it (thus the name Giggles xD).

Anyways, dear Diary, it's late and I should get a bit of shut-eye. Goodnight. Sleeptight. Don't let the bed bugs bite.




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