LustingforNightmares

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2014-09-27 09:12:05 (UTC)

Who Cares

September 27, 2014 Saturday 9:12 AM


I took double the dose of melatonin last night and fell asleep at like ten, which is nice and all, but now I want to keep sleeping and I can't.

My dreams made me sad. They had kisses and hugs and hand holding, and that depresses me because I wake up cold and alone, haha.

I'd give anything to just believe dreams are real life. I could fly again, or kill zombies, kill murders, I don't fucking know, kill whatever is coming after me and be okay. Also, I'd have love and maybe dream people are less close minded.

Yeah, I looked up what zombies meant (I had a zombie dream the night before) on dream moods and

ZOMBIE:

"To see or dream that you are a zombie suggests that you are physically and/or emotionally detached from people and situations that are currently surrounding you. You are feeling out of touch. Alternatively, a zombie means that you are feeling dead inside. You are just going through the motions of daily living.

To dream that you are attacked by zombies indicate that you are feeling overwhelmed by forces beyond your control. You are under tremendous stress in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream represents your fears of being helpless and overpowered.

To see someone as a zombie implies that your feelings for them is dead. You have not emotional attachment towards them."


So I suppose emotionally detached comes in here, too, right? Because that flatline feeling has yet to go away. I'm not even laughing at myself, either. I just don't care.

God, I hate waking up early. My parents nag me as soon as I wake up. I love them and all, but they are so indescribably annoying. I think that comes with the title of "parent".

Well, I don't know how I feel right now. Maybe that's the real problem, I have no idea what these feelings are and I'm too fucking tired of having to figure it out. welp, fuck it. Who cares?


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