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2014-08-30 22:14:21 (UTC)


I can't believe i'm feeling like this again. Aggressively ugly, stupid, and just plain worthless.

Usually I can get though it. Shake it off or push it to the side until I can barley feel the horrible pain on my whole body and mind slowly destroying me. But this time its worse.

Trying to get closer to the ones I think I isn't helping. The close I get to them the more my mind warps my feelings about them turning lovely compliments they give me into gut wrenching insults.

The things I love most to do isn't interesting me anymore. They have turned into horrible memories pushing themselves into my dreams like nightmares.

I need a distraction, sleep either evades me or makes it worse.

What could even help me at this moment?