twistedangel2012

The Wildflower
2014-08-17 13:26:48 (UTC)

BACK TO SCHOOL

Today, I have nowhere to be. I have no prior engagements that would otherwise require me to have to leave the house.

-I have enough food in the house to feed the children for the day.
-I have enough caffeine in the house to keep me motivated.
-I have all of the children with me, causing no room for the anticipated phone call that I need to go and pick them up for some reason.
-One child, my youngest is with his father; and while he is a toxic substance when with me, he is a very reliable father when it comes to fulfilling his obligation to his son, towards the access that he both asked for and agreed to.
-I have a few dollars in my pocket if a need should arise and I need to send one of the children to the store.
-I have a ton of work to keep me busy inside the house, and it is work that has been long procrastinated.
-I am reaching my goal to cleanse through my material possessions, while also organizing the items I do intend to keep, use, save, appreciate, and or treasure.
-I have 5 children going back to school in the fall, today is August 17, and school begins Sept 1.

1 daughter to junior high, public
1 son to junior high, catholic
2 kids to public school
1 daughter to grade 4, catholic

Backpacks, wardrobe, haircuts, a super clean and organized home, routine charts, lunch packing charts, a cleaned out fridge, freezer, and deep freezer along with ample use of cupboard space accordingly with the mind of all of the children being able to access the things they need on a daily basis.
A billboard to be hung, and introduced to the household as the school information board.
The push pin areas are to be used for forms that need to be signed, read, and or returned to school.
A method for meeting all the deadlines at school will be made
There will also be a BIG CALENDAR hung for all events at the schools with their details. SCHOOL INFO ONLY

Along side the calendars and pin boards will be each of the children's respective monthly calendars sent home from school as they come.

An area will be made in the kitchen as well for the storage of planners, lunch bags and lunch money jar. This will also hold the office supplies - these include, pens, pencils, paper, envelopes, stamps.
There also needs to be a reliable spot for book orders and library books.

Today will be the day that I reinvent the smooth way of going back to school!

Twisted Angel


also, ladies and gents.... DK still holds a spot in my mind but only because I think I did not get the closure from him I need. That would be for him to tell me, that he is not in love with me, and that I should not believe there may still be a me and him in the future.

without that exclusive, and believable statement from him, I still manage to hold onto this painful hope. It is not as strong as it once was, and I am no longer thinking of him the moment I wake up, or every time I lay down to sleep. Those moments were too hard, and unrealistic.

I do say out loud that I hope he is doing well, that I hope things are working out for him as they should be, and I say out loud that I want his children to have the best Dad they can have. I pray that he is reaching out to all of his children, and I pray that the relationship he is in, and the relationship that he has chosen to be in is bringing out all of the best possibilities in his capabilities as a parent.

I hope one day that he contacts me, if only to make that statement. If it doesn't happen I am sure I will still happily move on. As he has with K. She seems to really love him and if he feels the same, they deserve their fair run, as I would have wanted in that position. So, not that I am capable of ever actually trying to break two people up, because I am not capable of such things without certain circumstances I am sure, none that I have endured thus far though. I give them my hope and my blessing.

xo all





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