zoldyck93

what do i really want ??
2014-08-07 18:37:38 (UTC)

who am i ? never thought of it like this ..

hi this is me
as a boring introduction about me !! i'm male , green eyes ,dark hair .......... sorry now the real one :
i'm 21 years old which means i'm grown enough to be responsible of what i have and what i should do in my life , actually until 6 months ago , i thought i'm like that and nothing could break me because i'm strong and i do have big confidence and stuff like that ... until i met her .. she was the only thing i feel sensitive in front even though it's not love and it never was .. but before i tell my torture :
i'm from tunisia ,a country where most of people speak arabic and frensh when english isn't very popular here .. however i study english in university and it deosn't sound very usual when i tell this to anyone here .. so i'm a bit unusual and stranger here . But this was never a problem for me because since my childhood i loved being alone and doing stuff i like , i had a big confidence inside me since then , i was relying on myself in having most of the fun in my life , that's not isolation though because i have a lot of close friends mostly boys but girls was never a disturbing thing as a teenager .
i asked a lot and a lot of girls to be my girlfriend , sometimes they said o.k and it was never too long with them , a month at most , but most of times they said no and i was o.k with it , this never disturbed me ... i was always thinking that i have my own happiness to care about and as long as i'm young i should be free ..
i was raised by my grandfather , i loved him more that anything in this world even more than my parents and my sister , he was everything in my life , i spent all my childhood nights sleeping behind him in the same bed , his death three years ago was the worst thing that could ever happen to me , but life goes on and he's still alive in my heart .
i really loved writing now , it's the first time i write something about me .. these days i feel sad sometimes and i think sadness doesn't fit me well , i've been always happy .. but i should write next time about my problem that i couldn't tell it to anyone :'( bye




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