☣PYROMANIAC☣

✖✖Playing With Matches✖✖
2014-08-05 14:47:32 (UTC)

Suddenly Life Goes By

I thought grown-ups had it all together..
I thought they were strong..
Which is why I thought I couldn't be one..
Because I'm not strong..

But I was so wrong.
Adults aren't strong..
They're subdued.

As a kid enters there pre-teen years.. maybe even earlier..
Everyone older starts being more serious with you..
They begin the process of breaking will.
And they all claim to do it out of love
"It's for your own good"

And suddenly elementary school becomes High School..
Markers and crayons and stars with faces become smart boards and mechanical pencils and Pythagorean Theorem.
You start seeing expectations and rules and boundaries that your parents lay in place.
Suddenly everyone starts dating..
And suddenly skirts are higher.. and tops are lower.. make-up gets heavier..
And guys get taller..
And everyone starts having sex.
Driver's license and drugs and alcohol and weed.
Everyone's trying to be edgier.. and see how dangerous they can go..
Test the boundaries..
Suddenly everyone hates their parents.
Suddenly you and your parents start fighting about anything..
Rules and laws and morals don't exist.
Suddenly your grandparent(s) get sick..
The Internet and phones are the main source our minds flow into.
Suddenly all the adults are constantly in your face
Telling you to learn to think about colleges.. find a job.. keep certain grades...
Suddenly grandparent(s) die.
Telling you to "Grow Up"
Suddenly, Mom and Dad are having issues.
Suddenly everyone's wild.
Suddenly kids you might live close too.. known since elementary school.. had classes with..
Suddenly drop out.. are pregnant.. get arrested.. or even die.

And then if you make it through all of this..
Living in specific situations..
You're pushed to graduation..
You look at schools.. and jobs.. and lovers.. and apartments/houses..


And suddenly...
Everything slows down.
And you're worn so thin.
Society pushes until every last drop of free will and spirit and wildness and energy is drained out as we're forced into the next phase..

And suddenly everything speeds right back up.
Suddenly you're struggling..
Money. Money. Money. Money.
You try to find a job.. to make money, to pay for college and an apartment, JUST so you can get another job for more money to spend thirty more years paying off a house..
And you might get married.. if you're lucky.
And then all your expenses are doubled.
Her/his College fees..
Bills, insurance, gas, groceries..
Your parents split up, get back together, split up..
Divorce.. fight..
Suddenly your parents start looking tired.
You might have a few kids...
Your expenses are added on..
Clothes, Toys, bills, insurance, gas, groceries, school fees, hospital emergencies..
And suddenly.. you just don't feel like returning your parent's calls.
Suddenly, you just don't feel like visiting every weekend.
Suddenly, your parents go to the back of your thoughts.
Suddenly you're consumed.


And suddenly your little girl/boy whose precious and your light and your world..
Suddenly turns 13..
And then you start becoming more serious with them..
Your start laying down rules and expectations..
You start telling them to "Grow Up"
They start asking you for mini skirts and makeup and short shorts..
Suddenly they start bringing home boyfriends/girlfriends..
Suddenly you're telling your son to shave.
Suddenly you're teaching your daughter to drive.
Suddenly they start spending more time alone in their rooms.
Suddenly your kids start doing out of control, crazy things..
Suddenly you're giving them "The talk"
Suddenly you find condoms stashed in a drawer in their room..
Suddenly your kid totals their/your car driving home from a night of drinking..
Suddenly your daughter is pregnant..
Suddenly your kids hate you.
Suddenly you both are arguing and fighting about anything.
Suddenly you're constantly having to remind them responsibilities and morals..
Suddenly your mom and dad are sick..
Suddenly they're glued to their computers or phones
Suddenly you're having to scold them for bad grades..
Make them find jobs.. look for colleges..
Suddenly little disagreements with your spouse turn into nights sleeping alone on the couch..
Suddenly you notice bruises on them and clothing that don't belong to either of you..
Suddenly no compromises can be made..
Suddenly one of you say "Divorce"
Suddenly your kids start noticing your lack of affection..
Suddenly you lose your job and have to find another one.
Suddenly your kid lands them self in jail and call you at 3am to bail them out.
Suddenly, your kid wants to drop out..
Suddenly your kid gets to graduation..

And suddenly they get a job.
Make money.
Go to college.
Move out.
Get engaged.

And suddenly you start seeing/hearing less from them.

And suddenly everything starts slowing down.

And suddenly you look tired.

And suddenly your hair line has receded.

And suddenly stare into the mirror and see a worn out person.

And suddenly you become a grandparent.

And suddenly you start feeling strange.

And suddenly..

You don't wake up the next morning.

-PYROMANIAC




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