DeliriusDreamer

Don't Think or Judge. Just Listen
2014-08-05 00:54:51 (UTC)

Long days and Sleepless nights

Long time no see dear friend.

As much as I have so many things to write recently,I can never. Mostly because I want to keep this diary somewhat of a secret from my family, so they don't come looking for it, and that's a challenge when my kind of cousin Pink is spending the summer at my house and sleeping in my room. I love the girl to pieces, but sometimes a girl just needs her alone time, you know. So that is my excuse to why I haven't written in so long.

I haven't been sleeping well, Dear Diary. It mostly has to do with the fact that I have difficulty falling asleep when someone else is in my bed (Pink in this case, it can sometimes take up to three or four hours for me to get some shut-eye. But I can't blame it on the poor girl, she's honestly done nothing wrong. For the past few days I've been crashing on the couch, which doesn't give me the best sleep, but at least I have a few more hours this way. Not that it exactly works, because it's, you know, a couch. But at least I have the space all to myself for a while, and I can toss and turn like I want without being afraid of waking Pink up.

I've been also having difficulties with my mom and Sergeant, which hadn't happened in months. I guess the fact that I'm moving away's putting a big stress on everyone, and they want more from me than what I can give. As much as I want to spend as much time as possible with my family, they're not the only ones I'm going to miss when September comes, I have friends that I want to see and things that I want to do. My parents also see to think that I do nothing around the house, but when I only sleep well between 7am and noon, and that I work at three, I don't have much time for cleaning. If I do one thing I find it good, and it's not like I can start cleaning stuff when I get back from work because it's late and the babies are sleeping, so I can't win. They tell me that, in my head, I'm already gone, guilt trip me for not "trying harder" to spend the best next three weeks with them, but they don't see that I'm trying as much as I can, but there's just so much a girl can do. As much as I'm going to miss home, I can't wait for the move to happen, for me to be able to have a bit of breathing space.

On a bit of a lighter note, I'm cutting my hair again soon, just a trim so it's a little shorter for when University starts, and I'm dying it a deep, dark purple. It's going to be amazing. Also, in five days I will be able to cross Parachuting off my bucket list!

Anyways, goodnight Dear Diary, I will try to get a few hours of sleep before my day starts again.




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