Jasonpeace

Jason Mad Hatters diary
2014-07-14 20:43:38 (UTC)

im back!!! again!

hi all sorry for the lack in posts,


i would say I've been busy but ill be honest I've been busy
worrying about being busy if that makes sense

unfortunately my stress levels are rising probably caused by getting
closer to my driving test which is currently the last major hurdle

i can always tell when im getting overly stressed because I end up with a Dissociative Identity Disorder moment (Multiple Personalties)

i end up not just talking to myself but jason A (stressed jason) ends up constantly reassured by jason b (the shrink) tell myself just to take it easy and one step at a time and that everything will be ok
which of coarse it will see i believe myself :P

yes i am not as normal as i seem im a person with a damn hard case
but under that bullet proof vest steel armor and diamond plating
im weak im fearful and alone but i soldier on regardless
because lying on the floor isn't going to get me anywhere

anyway back to reality

over the weekend i managed to go round my dads and figure out things
i need for the van and what works what including the gas line that supplies gas to the atmosphere (now safely blocked and sealed correctly)

i ordered around £500 of electrical equipment for my van from batteries to solar panels to complete my vans gear

making my van living almost completely self sufficient

thing i still need to do is knock out one of the cupboards to make
space for the shower/toilet compartment

reversing camera (as seeing the rear of the van is like reversing a 747 without mirrors impossible im guessing)

and just the niggling odds and ends soo things on the progress front
are looking up with a month and a half left im doing well

ah also sorted my permanent address for things that need addresses
like bank and work and driving license etc so that was a weight of
my shoulders

i had my big driving lesson in peterborough that went well
only need to tidy up on my roundabouts get my mirror and signaling better timed

also need to smoothen out my gear changes a little

got my last pre-test lesson tomorrow then its test time
ill warn you all when i get a date

went to my arm wrestling tonight
my right side was weak and my left side was strong
but my eating has gone to the dogs again,,,,

so im down on weight again
i know there are people who wish they had my problem
and surely eating more can't be that hard right????
i don't know its a emotional/stress related thing
so not so easy to solve

also another thing the kid who im a backup foster carer for
went rampage Sunday night got arrested by the police and almost
ended up in a cell

what caused it he got took contact with his family is over court
decided that its best for him to stay away from them

well its not my place to say anything but its very tough on the poor
kid im going over as soon as its convenient because i need to have
a man to almost man with him (he seems to react better to me i think its because he is the only boy in the house)

i think thats everything updated

feel free to message me if you want a chat a shoulder to yank out
of its socket or a damn good argument (whatever floats your boat really)

im here for those who need me

PS random idea google glass came out in the uk now
and im tempted to get some when they reach my price range
i was thinking what would you guys and gals think of a Google glass video diary entry????

anyways night all


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