Vanilla

reflections

In a way a lot has happened in the last few weeks. We all went to cardiff which was a lot of fun. Spent two nights clubbing and I took fri and mon off of work. Except the minute I came back to london I've been ill and it sucks.

Me and diana sat down and talked about all our issues last month. I guess I've accepted that she's settled with her bf now and has moved on in a way. I do miss her...I miss having a close friend but I guess that's what happens when you grow up and get seriouis with your bfs. Its funny because I never thought I'd be the only single one now.

I thought of Mathias just a second ago..I wander what put him off me. Was it my childish drunk personality? Probably. I think I would go with that. Ah well. I'm not ready to be someone else. I am who I am and if people don't like it they can suck my dick.

Speaking of which. People have been calling me "weird" and its really annoying because its like why you calling me that? What isit to you if I am? Wtf is weird anyway. Isit because I am a nonconformed norm breaker. Sorry I don't fit your everyday descriptiom of a "normal" sheep person. I'd rather be weird different and me than some boring fake version of everyone else.