Mandie

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2014-07-04 10:20:36 (UTC)

I actually don't know what to..


I actually don't know what to write as the title. Lots have happened. Where do I even start?

Braves and I are through. Gan's been sent off to the US. Mendie's still in a light-switch relationship with David. Gatchie made a move on Ricardo and scored her first ever lips-on-lips (talk about girl code, she still hasn't said she's sorry).

I don't know where to start :(

The aftermath of the break-up? Well, it was a crying mess for both of us.

I tried to avoid him. I really did. Recently though, he's shows up everywhere. It was really frustrating. And sad. And stupid. I said we could be friends but hellooooo. How was he going to move on if he keeps seeing me.

So there I was trying to move on myself, no commitments for me mind you, a simple string of guys in my wake. I was reclaiming my past reputation of knowing lots buuuuuuut well, it was proving hard. While I was in my whirlwind romance, people have just sped up and had new close friends and I found myself unable to fit ANYWHERE.

There was Jane and Miguela and Britney and everyone but well...Angel's past silence to me has become present silence once again. She's been hanging out with CJ. It was kind of sad, I was really jealous but hey, if she's happy then wth. Robin has new CLOSER friends. Miguela, Jane and Britney though, they're still as close as ever even if we don't talk much anymore. I love them.

Miguela. Post-Sano, she's been a ME in a different body. It's like, we're mind-twins. Same attitude, same likes, but different types. She's more into tall, white and ooh hot while I'm down the traditional tall, dark and handsome road. I've found time hasn't changed our friendship and I'm thankful.

Jane. She just leaves a trail of broken hearts. Awesome actually, but the guy she wants isn't exactly the type to have a broken heart. We're practically soulsisters. I looove Jane. She just gets me. Like, even when I have food in my mouth and I'm urgjskdjakfas-ing what I'm saying, she understands. I love that it only took a mutual class this term to get our friendship back from the ashes.

Britney. Well, Britney's not the usual friend. She's the star, born to be. She's a model and a singer and a, well nevermind not much a dancer. She strings us up to her pageants and well, she's awesome.

I've recently gotten close to a guy, Mavy. He's nice. Initially, I didn't like him. Braves, post-break-up, revealed that they're friends from HS and that Mavy thinks my voice is um irritating? Well, not my fault that my group listens to no one. Post-close-friend, I don't like him. He's nice, sure. We planned stuff like, jamming(cause he plays the guitar) and make short films(cause he's handy with a movie editor) and a band buuuut.

Well, there was development. Braves, just 10 days ago, finally realized there was no future for us whatsoever. Mavy, Rabin and Braves had a twitter convo about it and well, I don't actually appreciate being talked about in front of my face. It's the public and they're saying stuff like the whole relationship was only me flirting my way into his wallet and shit like that. EXCUSE ME, I loved the guy. I'm not about to defend myself though. I mean, let Braves believe it, as long as I don't hurt him anymore. BUT MAVY. LOYALTY BRO. Like what the fuck bro? I know you'd advice him and talk to him but please, not where I can see/hear it..

Love lots, Mandie




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