Rebel Nova

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2014-07-03 14:42:39 (UTC)

Living In A Dream I Never Had

And so it is. You appeared in my dreams last night;you being S. It was a little weird, you wanted to, but something was holding you back as well; wanting to give me a kiss, but the kiss was completely awkward. Which awoke me with mixed feelings. I shouldn't be mad at you, you did nothing wrong, but I still hold this anger over nothing.

This anger, then, escalated with my grandma telling me to "get over it" and "to not ask my mom for help or I would be setting myself up for disappointment". HA!

My mother is a big disappointment in terms of her being a mother and it pissed me off after that statement because I told her how my mom treated me and that I haven't asked her for help for 5-7 years.

Today did not start good, nor do I think it will end to well either, but there is another day and that is tomorrow; which will become today and today is all I'm focusing on. I just wish today was already over.

Might continue this later, I'm listening to grandma talk on the phone right next to me.




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