LustingforNightmares

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2014-06-30 23:34:56 (UTC)

Bipolar Disorder


"Trojans" by Atlas Genius

[Seems like an appropriate song for now"

Change it all but can't change what we've been
Oh, oh there are trojans in my head

Tuesday, July 1, 2014 12:37 AM

I'm so confused.

I'm happy one moment, sad the next. I'm suddenly not feeling the whole writing thing. I'm back to feeling everything. I'm back to being sad. Or am I? I don't know.

I know I need to be constantly distracted in order to function. That's not healthy. Fuck.

I'm always thinking about cutting. i reached out to Lily and she made me feel so much better, though . That was nice.

I feel under appreciated. I know what I need but I can't get it. I desperately need love and I hate myself for needing a specific kind of love. Maybe what is really happening is I'm not okay, so I make myself feel like I need something.

I don't know. I'm done.


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