adorablyawkward

my story
2014-06-29 22:29:39 (UTC)

good thoughts

5:29pm

Love songs make me smile again.

:)

It is the absolute best feeling in the world to have someone who you can be you self around 100% without filter. If you've never been able to do that, I encourage you to find someone that you can because it's the best feeling i'm telling you.

J is so perfect, guys. Wow, i'm slightly overwhelmed at his perfection. It is SUCH a relief to find someone with the same morals as you.

He is also in the exact same situation as me with everything. He was raised EXACTLY the same as I was. It's so wonderful to be able to connect with someone like that.

For me, the saying "opposites attract" isn't true. I prefer to have someone who is similar to me.

Oh my goodness I'm falling for him so hard. Ahhhhhh there are no words!

Let me tell you about our date the other night. It was my birthday Thursday, and he wanted to take me out.

So we went to the movies. Lucky for us, we were the only two in the entire theater! I was so excited about that. So we sat on the back row and talked for most of the movie. We got to laugh and be as loud as we wanted since no one was there. It was really cool! During the movie, he reached over and grabbed my hand and held it. This was the first time we've ever held hands. :)

Then he was driving me home and I just straight up told him I wanted to make out with him. So he pulled off and we parked down a back road in the middle of the woods. I felt like I was about 16 again, like this is what teenagers sneak around and do! (I'm still a teenager, 18, and he's 21 but we're still older for that) But that just made me laugh!

So we're there in the dark, and I'm straddling his lap and we're making out. In the background his Eric Church CD was playing this song called "Like A Wrecking Ball" (suuuuper sexy song, listen to it) and it was slow and romantic and softly in the background. It was one of the happiest moments I've ever had and i'm not sure why. It was absolutely perfect. We fell for each other a lot that night.

So, last night my town was putting on fireworks after the festival we have every year. J asked me if I wanted to go watch with him (of course I did!!)

He picked me up at 8 and we drove to town. We were about to stop at this little sandwich shop, but as we were about to turn my ex was pulling out of there. So I ducked in the seat to avoid being Seen by him. J then told me there was no ducking aloud in his truck, and that he didn't care who saw us.

We went there and I saw 2 people I know. Then we went to the store where I saw 3 people who I really know from school.

So it's out now to the public. People know that I'm hanging out with him. And I do not care at all :) My ex has probably heard by now and I don't feel a bit bad, he needs to learn to handle his problems properly and I am not going to change my life to cater to his feelings.

Anyways, so then we drove around the surrounding area looking for a good place to park and watch the fireworks. We ended up parking on this little secluded area on a hill.

The fireworks were supposed to start at 9:00 and didn't even start until 10:25. So I was with J from 8-11 or so and I was totally okay with that. :)

We sat there and talked about everything and he told me all of these things he had been thinking about that were so perfect about me. He told me he had never been so excited about me. That he had liked me even a long time ago (read my old posts) when I had no clue. That he really like me a lot. You have no idea how happy I was. Oh, he also told me we would be going to an NBA game this winter :DDDDDDD

It was funny to me, he is a suuuuper good guy. Doesn't drink, smoke, cuss, party, anything like that. (He's not a bit boring either, its great). But he really tries to be good. I asked him "So, you never cuss? Ever? Not even when you're mad?" He tells me never. But then. he says, "Unless I'm like telling a story about someone and I'm just repeating what they're saying." And then he was giving an example of what he meant and he said ass. ANd I thought it was so funny to hear such a goody say a dirty word!

He cussed two more times after that and I gave him a hard time about it. Well, he said "n*gger" and I said that's technically a cuss word. And he said it is if you're white and he's half black so that doesn't count. So whatever.

But anyways, the fireworks finally started going off and I was kinda talking to him and he interrupted me and said "Wait hold on, there's something I have to do before the fireworks stop."

And very unexpectedly to me he leaned over and kissed me. It was such a perfect moment. :)) have I mentioned he is insanely good at kissing? Wheeew.

Anyways that's basically our night. It was so wonderful and literally the PERFECT summer night. This summer is turning out so wonderful. I am truly happy.





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