BeautifulMistake

LesbianGirlWholeNewWorld
2014-06-06 11:03:19 (UTC)

The Situation

You thought you were going to come in my life and I was going to be this vulnerable girl because I just got out of a relationship and I was so unstable with my emotions. But your game took a turn for the worst on you because when I slept with you I imagined it was her and you tripped and fell in love with me.

Now we have a situation.

I know I shouldn't have slept with you knowing I was only imagining it was her but I needed to prove to myself, I guess, that I wasn't going to be broken forever. But you see that bit me in the ass too because now I hate myself for hurting you and I hate myself for being with you when I wasn't ready.

Now we have 2 situations.

You're hurting. I'm hurting. And to be honest I don't know how to make this better for either of us. No matter what, you get hurt and I stay hurt.

Still have 2 situations.

You're right, I could be with you and we could make a life together and we could forget everyone else in the past and move forward and get to know each other more and have it all down to the white picket fucking fence. But you and I both know that is not how this works.

I can't be with you because my heart is still with her. And you can't settle for being with me knowing my heart is with someone else. You have to go. You have to go far away from me. You're too nice and I will only hurt you.

I guess by the end of this I was hoping to fix both situations. But it's not looking like that is going to happen. I can't ask you to wait till I'm ready because I don't know if I ever will be.

I'm sorry I hurt you when I was too busy focusing on what was going to make me feel better. I'm sorry I was selfish. But if we're being honest... You came for me. And you fell for me. And you knew my situation. So I can't take all of the blame here.





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