☣PYROMANIAC☣

✖✖Playing With Matches✖✖
2014-06-05 23:22:48 (UTC)

Outside Changes

There have been changes in me physically.

It's obvious that this would happen.
You eat too much, you gain weight. It's simple.

But not so simply controlled by a weak mind, and will power..
My binge eating has gotten out of control.
It's like.. I can't stop.
There's something empty inside me, and I try so hard to fill it
With something.. solid and warm.
Food is that substance..
The taste, the fullness in my stomach..
It doesn't help.. because I'm never satisfied..
My stomach can't hold enough.
I always overeat.. and feel sick.

My hair is getting longer..
And anyone that knows me knows
That I can't stand my hair being as long as it is.
I'm never comfortable with my hair unless it's short.
Short as a boys.
I've been asking for a cut but she's never in a hurry to make appointments for me.
If it were E, he'd get it right away. Sometimes within the same hour he asks.

I look into the mirror... and don't know who I see.
She isn't me.

-PYROMANIAC




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