Zubicu

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2014-05-08 14:36:19 (UTC)

Entry twenty

Reader,

Are you a follower or a leader?
Personally, I've always been a follower. Reason being because I was never given the chance to lead, and now that I am being given the choice I don't want to make it because I don't want to make the wrong one.
I can make decisions if they're for myself.
But if they involve another person, even if it's something as simple as what do you want to play, I don't want to make the choice.
I want to follow, not to lead. I'm not one of those special born-to-be-leaders the Air Cadets say everyone is. They try, but as I see it, they're making me into someone I'm not.
Dan says I'm a lot more confident, and I guess I'm a bit stronger, but...I can never be who I want to be.
To be a police officer, I need to be a leader.
To be a reptile keeper I need to not shy down when it comes to talking to others, and be able to make decisions.
So that only leaves an astronomer...or the armed forces.

That reminds me. I'm thinking of joining the armed forces. Whether I join the army or the RAF is unclear as of yet, but I'm probably going to work with them. Even if it's just as a medic, I'm still going out there. Ssundee could do it, and he came back alive after three years and started up Youtube, and now he's famous.
Why shouldn't I be able to do the same?
Not be famous on Youtube, or at all; that's only ever going to be just a dream. Just to go into the armed forces, serve my time, then get out and live a comfortable life.
At least there I don't have to be a leader....all I have to do is follow orders. And that's all I'll do.

I found another song by Shinedown, which is kind of my new favourite song xD It relates to war and for some reason I connected it to TF2 :/ Here; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YGWzq5OrpCI




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