Bruceee1975

Bruce
2014-04-29 04:22:53 (UTC)

Revenge

I started this diary thing for one purpose and that was to release pressure from what I was feeling over my long, drug out divorce. I haven't had too much to say in awhile or too much to write..I still to this day, 4 months shy of 3 years since the divorce, have some feelings time to time about her or think what could've been. Not even close to what I was going through couple years ago or so when it was a constant thing or setting crying over missing her...and blaming myself for the fallout. I now know she's totally moved on and we have had no contact for at least a year now or better..I do not miss the endless drama of her crazy family or miss the fighting we endured a lot, but still miss the woman I fell in love with over 16 years ago. Wow it's been that long? Holy crap, can't believe it's been that long since we worked together at same store and was just a couple of people not even in each other's league but managed to fall in love and get married only to see what should've been forever turned into 11 years and over. The guy she's with is the same guy I do believe she had an affair with even when he was still married...he's a long haired freak who plays in a local band...and problem is I have rage in me..and even revenge. I don't want to see her happy and don't want her and him to go on unpunished...maybe karma is a bitch and maybe will come around on her one day but I'm not willing to wait that long..I want revenge on them so bad and not sure how. Slashing tires or name calling isn't my thing..even stalking or fighting isn't the answer either. I truly want her and him to become miserable..become wounded animals from a fight and have her come crawling back to me on all four hoping I'll open the door to the past and let her back into my life, but only thing she'll get is the door slammed very hard in her face! Revenge isn't the answer, but if I could just see her suffer, just a little bit, might be enough.




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