MissEnlightenment

Bipolar Mama
2014-03-29 00:55:28 (UTC)

Love is in the air!

My moods been quite good lately. The weather has been slowly improving bringing my spirits up with it. I have continual mood swings including some pretty angry moments but nothing I would consider to be an episodic sign, I always can't help but wonder how my 'everyday' mood swings differ from someone who doesn't have a mood disorder.
Kyle and I have been absolutely amazing.
I just read back to the post where him and I were on rough terms and not being physical with one another. It was hard to remember, but it lead me to remembering the moment we talked things out, laying in his bed. We came to an understanding and began cuddling, he held me and asked, 'Can I make love to you?'...my heart flourished. It's things like that. That poised, chivalric approach... a gentleman above all.
I remember how my body ached for him, how I lost all control as I eased into his hypnotic touch.
I am so absolutely blessed to have him.
I think sometimes I picture love, and life as something that falls into place depending on how we respond to and nurture it. And, that's true. But I think sometimes this leads me to believe that it's not in my control... that it's nothing but a non-foreseeable sequence of events. When I picture my happy forever...it's not unpredictable and unstable, it's safe and in-control. I think that life and love, are, more importantly, paths that are chosen. I know that having Kyle in my life as a my forever partner is a path I intend to follow. It is a an absolutely beautiful path, paved with golden cement and extravagantly embellished with a vast arrangement of floral imagery.
I'm one lucky gal.




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