One thing this divorce has done for me is that it has definitely made me aware of mental strength.
I look at everything now as a mental test. Whatever inconvenience or obstacle in front of me is a test of my mental capabilities.
I can overcome many things now.
I am bolder in my business and in my relationship with others including that with my estranged wife. The bitter pill I still taste till now is the lack of acknowledgement for all the things I did during the marriage. I may have failed her with my adultery but I am a good person inside. The two don’t have to go hand in hand but this is the way she has chosen to portray me as an irresponsible person. I would not lie. That still hurts till this day.
Not sure if she has basic human relationship ethics. I watch how I enter the room she stays 9as I still have my clothes there). I respect her privacy and try to make as little noise as possible. She does the exact opposite when she comes to the children’s room which is effectively now my room. I try to use my mental strength here to overlook this and just say to myself it is only for a ‘season’. I will soon move out. I am looking forward to my life. It is going to be a big challenge. I fancy myself!