xericamariee
Growing Up Fast
Moved to Murrieta
Well I got a call from Maddie on Wednesday after work that there are moving me to a full time position at Murrieta.
:(
Ugh I can't even tell you how much I DONT need this right now. All I feel like doing is crying and it fucking sucks because I want to be so strong and be able to be a good leader. But Alaena intimidates the shit out of me and how can I make any decisions when i'm afraid i'm always going to get in trouble from every decision i make?
And I still have to finish my speech and essay and they're both due monday and tuesday and it fucking sucks i waited to the last minute. It really snuck up on me so fast i didn't even realize. :/
"Feel the fear and do it anyway"
Chris was so freaking amazing to me last night when i started crying over everything. He hugged me and started telling me the sweetest things like "youre the best thing that ever happened to me"
I feel sick to my stomach right now. I don't want to face the day. And I have to. Fuck.
Erica if you're reading this right now I envy the moment that you're in. I hate this feeling. :(
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