Dinoraur.

Reality.
2014-03-01 01:10:31 (UTC)

Love.

I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
He's so beyond perfect. I can not wait to be with him forever..
Let's try to explain my day.
I was with him. I went over to his grandparent's home. I got there around eleven thirty, and left at six. The. Best. Day. Of. My. Life. I got there, and we went downstairs. He picked me up, where my legs were wrapped around him, and he kissed me. It was adorable. We then sat on the couch and he held me in his arms. We kissed. A lot.
Oh my. I really don't know how I want to write this. I don't know if I actually want to talk about what all we did or not. I wouldn't know how to explain.
Eh. Whatever. That's what this VD is for. Even though sometimes my boyfriend reads this..
I'll just say it all.
While we were downstairs, he started fingering me.. We then went upstairs, and continued doing that. Oh goodness. That was great.
You need a little background to understand this part. See, him and I are, I guess you could say, competitive. We always have little "arguments." Like, who got to a spot before the other person, who loves or misses the other person more, small stuff. It's cute. :) Anyway, he is a person who always has to win. I'm allowed to have one win per week. I get my one win back every Friday. I told him I wanted another win. I asked him what I would have to do to get another win. He told me to.. Well.. "Blow him."
Also, as I had said before, we've had a joke about him stealing my cherry because of a Jolly Rancher. I talked about it in a different entry.
Right before he stopped fingering me, he asked if I wanted to get my second win(which is already used.. He's good at tricking me with my wins!), and after that, he would steal my cherry.
I said okay.
And that's what happened. I "pleasured him" (I don't know how else to say it without making it sound so dirty.), and then him and I went back into the bedroom.

It was all so great.
We went back out to the living room, and he wrapped me up in his arms. He asked if it was "Everything I thought it would be."
I almost wanted to laugh.
I didn't ever have a thought about it. I never pictured myself doing it really. I replied to him saying, "Of course. I was with you."
And that's true. If I'm with him, everything is absolutely perfect. I couldn't ask for more. I love him. I love his touch. I love it when he rubs my face. Like, my cheek to my chin. It's adorable. I love when he squeezes me tightly. I love how, I didn't have socks or shoes on, and my feet were freezing, so he would either use his hands, out put my feet between his legs to warm them up. He played with my foot at one point when we were sitting on the couch. Haha. I love how everything he says is so perfect. It is always perfect. He is perfect.
We actually later went back into the bedroom, and had a little bit more fun, and cuddled. I almost fell asleep. At one point while we were cuddling, I had to kept my eyes open so I wouldn't fall asleep.
After we ate dinner, we sat on the couch and cuddled close together. We talked about him leaving. I truly wanted to cry. I almost did cry. Which is weird.. I haven't cried about him leaving in a long time. I usually don't think about it.. That's probably why.
Anyhoo, we were talking about him leaving, and me following. How, it would be bad if his base moved while I was in college, because I wouldn't be able to transfer colleges. He asked me what I planned on doing for college.
We then talked about marriage. He said about, if we get married once I graduate, then I'd be able to see him more, and get a lot of money or whatever. Well, it would be his money. Not mine. Anyway, I love when he talks about marriage, but at the same time, I don't.
I'd marry him right here, right now. I seriously would. I can imagine myself being with him forever.
The only reason I don't like when he brings it up, is because I don't want it to a suggestion just because he will be in the Air Force. I don't want it to be just so I get some benefits, and get to see him. Obviously I'll want to see him as much as I possibly can, but I want to marry him for more than just that reason. I love when he talks about marrying me. When he says about us getting married when I graduate. It makes me so smiley. I want to marry him, I do. I just.. I want to be sure he does, and it isn't just for the army.
I asked him if he planned on staying all twenty years, or would stop after these four years.
He wants to do all twenty. That way he can retire at the age of 38.
He told me it would depend on how much he'd be able to see me, and how hard things would be, but I think is really going to do all twenty years regardless.
I really, really, really do not want him to. I don't. I don't even want him to do these four years, let alone twenty! But it's his choice, and I will respect any decision he makes. He's everything to me. As long as he is happy. That's all I want. If he wants to do all twenty years, I'll follow wherever I need to, and I'll be there for him. I will. I'm not leaving him.
I've always wanted to stay living in one place. I mean, I really do want to travel the world but not as a life style. I'd have to move several times the twenty years I'm sure.. Which is okay, because it is for him, but.. I don't know..
I just can't wait until everything is normal, and we can have a perfect life together. That's all I want..
I love my boyfriend to absolute no end. I had the greatest day ever with him. I feel so lonely now that I'm back at my grandma's.. I want to be back in his arms, and sleep with him tonight. Everything. I can't wait until the day comes where I don't have to leave his side.
I can't wait until he can have me all the time.. If he wants me you know. I don't want to try and talk for him. I'm just stating how I feel. Who knows.. He could change his mind about me someday. I truly hope he doesn't though..
I probably left out a lot, but at the moment, this is all that I can think of to say.

I'm going to add to this real quick. It's about.. Five hours after I initially wrote all that. My boyfriend and I were just on the phone for four hours. I love him. He makes me so happy. His sleepy voice is soooo adorable. It's kind of like his sweet voice, when he's being really sweet to me. It's very calm, higher pitched, and soft. It's extremely cute. I just thought I'd share that, because he is adorable. He stayed on the phone with me to help me sleep. I'm exhausted, and probably soon going to try and sleep. He has me really relaxed right now. I think I might just lie down, and reminisce about today.




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