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Becci's super cool awesome diary
2014-02-27 21:56:18 (UTC)

Oh my fucking shit

Right okay, I'm really embarrassed aha. I havent been on this in like a million years so I re-read some of the stuff I put and I had to delete a load of stuff, so cringey. I kept two though, the first is because well I don't wanna have to explain why I'm gonna keep a diary again and the second one purely makes me laugh. I do not feel that way anymore, well I do sometimes but not about a specific person. Adam, the lad I got all messed up about, hes a friend-ish. It depends, he gets grumpy a lot, even more so than usual recently but I think it might be because I'm not interested in pursuing him anymore and hes not taking it well because I've just always been about Adam. Don't get me wrong, I like him and everything but just as a friend you know? I don't know how I managed to get over him or why the hell it took me so damn long but its nice now that I have. I still obsess over people though, its just who I am. A couple months ago it was someone called Leon, well no its Liam, don't even get me started on him thats a whole other story which I'll explain like later on or whatever but yeah thats starting to come to an end now and I can't wait to go a day, then a week, then a month without thinking about him. Its happening, slowly but as my nan says 'slowly slowly, catch a monkey' first of all what the fuck does that mean? Second of all, wouldn't you have to be fast to catch a monkey? I don't understand. Urgh theres so so so so much shit that I have to say, things about college, my family, my at this moment in time questionable mental health (I'll explain some other time) and then of course Leon/Liam. He's something I want to write about soon-ish, maybe tomorrow. But yeah, I'm back on this because I was keeping an old school hand written diary and well my parents found it.. and fucking read. Which I'm so mad about, why the hell are they in my room, going through my stuff and reading my shit. What does it have to do with them? I'm like an adult, I don't act like one but 18 is 18 and I need privacy and thank God they're like brain dead when it comes to using the internet so they won't stumble across this.. but if they do... Fuck off, stop trying to interfere with shit, if you invade my space one more time I will become a prostitute and then you'll be the people with a prostitute as a daughter. Yeah.
So I'm done for now, mainly because I want to go back to watching Deep Blue Sea because that film is everyyyythingggg. Its like my favourite shark film, which isnt saying much because apart from the Jaws' which I don't like and Sharknado I don't really know any other shark films.. But yeah, I'm going now. So like, bye.


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