☣PYROMANIAC☣

✖✖Playing With Matches✖✖
2014-02-07 21:35:07 (UTC)

Its All About You

Today? You fucking pissed me off.
How?

You were in such a horribly, bad mood this morning.. and so the whole fucking world had to pay for it, right? -_-

Oh my god, You fucking bitched at everyone who said something that just so happened to not please you.. You smartassed off at EVERYONE that was with us this morning to the point where I just wanted to slap that bitch look off your fucking face.
I just dared you to snap at me...
I just fucking DARED you..
You roll your eyes at my friends.. you call them names.. You bitch at them.. People have LEFT us in the mornings in the library.. because of YOU..

Oh.. and so.. this afternoon when we got on the bus after the pep rally, you were in a better mood.. But omg..
I put on my snapback hat on correctly today, not backwards like normally.. and I pulled my hood over it.
You said.. "How come YOU can pull those hats off better than ME?"
I was silent.
I'm bisexual. I dress masculine. Hell, I even LOOK like a dude
My personality and body suit that hats and ties.
YOU..
You have long.. RED hair opposed to my very very short brown hair.
YOU dress like a fucking church girl/redneck. (Not that there's anything wrong with that) I'm just saying.. OF COURSE it's not going to suit you.. because it ISN'T you.
She says shit like this all the time if I find something that I actually look good wearing.. She's like "Omg I could pull that off too" or she'll mention about how she could pull off guy's clothes too..when she NEVER wears guy clothes like I DO.
So after I told her it was her hair.. she was like I'll pull off those hats before we graduate. -_-

You wouldn't shut up about your new crush and his friends.
That's one thing I can't stand about you..
When you like someone.. you suddenly love everything they love.. you even start ACTING like them..
This new one is Mexican.. AND he plays soccer.. and omg.. you won't stop talking about how you've always loved soccer, and Mexican people. .when before HIM.. you never even said anything about someone who isn't WHITE.
When you liked Z.. you were suddenly this business casual lady, because he's in band and honors classes..
When you liked Phil.. You were this badass, wears all black chick.. because he was actually badass..
If I like someone.. I don't even get a WORD in.. I've just learned to stop talking about them around you.. and you're supposed to be my "best" friend..
I stopped talking to you about Josh entirely.. You didn't care to begin with.. and you wouldn't listen even if I did..
You know how I know you don't listen? You look me in the fucking eyes when you're actually paying attention to me.. but when you're not.. you stare off and wait for me to stop talking about whatever.. thinking about what you're going to start talking about when I'm finished.. and THEN guess what it's about? YOU. YOUR CRUSHES. BECAUSE IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU.

So I've stopped talking to you about my personal thoughts, or problems.. because I know you don't care.. you don't want to care.. You won't listen..
I just think of random stuff to say or just listen to you talk the entire time we're together..

The depression hit me so hard last year.. and I couldn't be your crutch as much.. I fucking blocked you out with music, bus ride to school - bus ride home.. because I just couldn't deal with you..
I felt so guilty too.. I even wrote you a LONG letter explaining what was going on with me and that I was sorry about not being there for you.. and that I'd try over the summer to be better.
I even said that aloud... that I'd use the summer to try to get better.. and you know what you fucking said?
"Yeah, You better. I'm going to need you next year."

BECAUSE IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU!

~LoveStruck</3




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