Just a sin
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2014-02-01 02:59:11 (UTC)


Have you ever just sat alone and thought of your life? Where no one can interrupt your thoughts, tell you a little white lie to make you feel better about yourself, where no one can save you for actually realizing the ugly truth. To be honest, I don't know if I can really get over how loved I felt around him. How happy he actually made me, just to even be around him. I didn't need a kiss or touch or any physical contact to feel important or wanted. I don't love, never have, never will. But there was just something about him that had me to continue to go back for more. Maybe I'm just being one of those crazed girls that can't let go of the past. But it's not just him that gets to me. It's just knowing that he doesn't want anything to do with me. That nobody wants anything to do with me. I've just lost my purpose, my innocence, my way, and myself. I remember being the girl that others would look to for advice, look at me like I was just the best person in the world. I've just became so heartless. I just can't seem to give two fucks to things I would have done anything for. I don't want to live like this. This fucking sucks. I'm too selfish, too fragile, too disturbed and too fucking worthless for any one.