tovey92

Daily Notes :/
2014-01-10 22:05:08 (UTC)

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It's now 2014, the last time I wrote on here was over a year ago!
Not a lot has changed but things are okay at the moment. Me and Charm a now friends and probably closer then ever before. It's great. She means a lot to me. I can trust her. Confine in her and be myself. I hope this friendship lasts. Me and Faye, the girl i had a crush on, we remain friends, just about. We had a falling out recently. Things are looking better though.

Last year i wrote a few things i wanted to do. Well i never really achieved any of them. But i did do a little bit of travelling. I had a great holiday to Tenerife and Portugal. In fact i'm going back to Portugal next week. Cannot wait for the week off.

The week off is needed. It feels like i have not had time off from work for a while. I know i'll miss it when i'm away but that's good. It helps me realize how much i love my job. The week off also gives me an opportunity to think.

It feels like i have lost touch with my feelings and emotions yet i feel rather down in the dumps unable to figure out why. I have been reading that not expressing your feelings can make you depressed and generally feel down. I figure i'm feeling this way because i'm repressing my thoughts and feelings and they're building up on me. I don't really know why i don't express myself. I think there maybe a number of reasons. Partly i'm afraid of being judged. Also i don't know how to word my thoughts and feelings. finally i'm afraid it'll make me 'weak'. Which leads me to my target for the year. This year i want to focus on becoming a more confident social being. I want to be able to talk to people more freely, i want to be able to express myself without fear. So wish me luck.




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