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Ragdoll Princess
2014-01-02 15:52:09 (UTC)

Hit the goal Cheerio

I breathe, like a horse gasping for breath. I am hyperventilating like crazy and now that it is 2014, i hope my weaknesses will be lessen this year. the seed will still grows until it passed its dormant years and will become a strong tree or a shrubs. the dog becomes a man's best friend when you take care of it and feed it well. you'll get a high score and did well in your exams if you didn't skip classes and study well. you will receive praises if you try to be good in everything you do. You will become an apple of the eye if you're just lovable. You'll get what you want if you have almost everything; fame, wealth, beauty and brain. You can say life is perfect after all, if you have all the smiles in the world. But life is not always a piece of cake. there are some instances that it tasted like a bile. So bitter that you can not even swallow. Well, my life tasted like a bitter coffee sometimes, it's lack of sugar and cream that makes me throw it up.

Weeds are still plant-looking, but we pull it in a garden because it's not beautiful. It ruin the view when you want to have a promising backyard. I rather plant daisies, roses and some herbs in my garden if I will have a garden. How will I have, if I don't even have a house. I don't have enough money yet to build my dream house, because I'm still working on something needed to be done first. Talking of future, i think, i might need a goal for this year. I mean, I can make my to-do-list in a condition that it must be done rather than just writing it. There were things that had happened last year that made me realized that I'm not letting my life to be a stagnant forever. I hate to be stuck you know? I want a life that's moving, like I don't want to watch a boring movie. I rather watch a rubbish sex-comedy movie than a boring one. I don't want to act nonchalant at all, when the truth is I am not. I do care about my future that makes me pessimist sometimes. But, I will try to be optimistic and I have to do it not just say it. For some reason, things that had happened to me last year were not bad at all; I quit my job in call center, went here in Bangkok, first time to work as a nanny-tutor of a Thai-Chinese rich family and become a college teacher in a Business College- and for the record, it's a dream come true, because I thought, being a teacher is impossible in my part because I didn't hold a BS degree. Thanks to Dear God because he made things possible, although it's a cliche, this saying still rings true to whoever wants to say it; WE ARE NOTHING WITHOUT GOD.
true right?
But as a human-being, we keep on searching for the right place for us. I maybe reached my goal to become a teacher, but I still didn't feel the spirit. Because honestly, most of my classes are like unresponsive that makes me feel like ineffective. This is one of the reasons why I quit in call center because I feel ineffective, and I hate this word. So when I feel it, I have to come up with a bright idea and I have to change it to effective. I maybe not that smart, not that beautiful and sweet cake! I don't have a perfect set of teeth but I never give up. Because, even if I'm nerd, I AM NOT A LOSER, BECAUSE THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS LOSER, BECAUSE WE'RE ALL GOD'S CHILDREN after all. I better have that To-do-list for my goals to hit this year. And like a horse, I race until I have that gold. I better do it, not just say it, right?

>>off to bed! Cheerio!




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