simply me

my wee diary
2013-12-01 23:05:53 (UTC)

hope ,hopefully,


where to start
not too sure, it's so ironic , never felt so strong, physically in the best shape for years but it is just masking the hurt, being on my own has giving me such a different outlook on life, its actually quite good burning most of my dinners but i still eat them, it's like medicine, food to train , train to live, it's just a pity it sometimes feels lonely, guess i've got use to it.
its difficult to comprehend how i used think as a kid, all i wanted was money, fancy car and muscles, lol, it's amazing how a few years of living can change your outlook , i must have been so stupid, i guess i'm still not the brightest but at least my outlook has changed, , money , just enough to pay the bills, the car, anything does as long as it runs from a to b and muscles, lol, it's a strange feeling when you realise that big muscles doesn't always give you strength, i assume it would help to find a good woman , but any woman who wants you for big muscles isn't always a lasting relationship, been there and worn the very painful t shirt.
it's the compromise, do you stick to your guns and wait for the dream girl, a girl who see's your heart before anything else or do i just keep myself hoping the loneliness goes away.
time for the eyes to close,
hope is a wonderful feeling to hold onto .




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