lingeringtime

windy winter
2013-11-15 22:09:32 (UTC)

It's over

Well the exam is done, and I am hoping for over a 70%, honestly not even exaggerating. I couldn't even do the last few questions. Physics is just not for me. On another note, Ryan was upset with me today. It's not that I don't want to study with him, or that I hate asking people for help (well, the latter may be true) it's just that, i feel so intimidated and stupid when I can't solve a certain problem and when he has to help me with it. I want him to help but i have way too much pride it's a sin. Anyway, I'm pretty sure he's fully aware of how hurtful the things he says when he's upset truly are. But i guess i can't blame him for it, I deserve it for being so mean and heartless. I honestly don't mean to, but i just can't help it when i feel so useless and he is able to solve all the questions. Perhaps jealousy is a part of it too. I don't know, i feel like he's almost to the brink of how frustrated he can get with me. I just hope he wouldn't get bored and leave. I'd never want that. We always make up in the end, but i know the problem still lies, and even though i promised i'd try to talk and be supportive when he's down, i know i'll do it again. I hope he won't leave.




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